Well I’m not too sure but sometimes I wonder about that.
It is In certain environments more than others I’m so afraid of too much conflict.
It really affects my mood?
And paranoia, anxiety??
If I don’t really watch what I say in certain environments
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I give you permission to be mean to me. Insults are generally forbidden here , but I give you permission to insult me in this thread. Let your un-niceness fly. Lets see if you can do it and dispel this myth of being “sickly sweet”.
Just for the sake of this experiment. 
. Cmon, I can take it. Show me what you got!
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No thanks… But I appreciate the sentiment very much.
I do remember having occasional mad outbursts on here though lol.
I have been silenced once for it.
@Ninjastar was really sweet she explained to me, girl, I think you will regret this if you keep on talking so I will silence you 
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lol. sorry, did not mean to put you on the spot. I’m getting tired and loopy. Probably not a good idea.
Yes, ninjastar is generally very nice and understanding.
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Anyway Bowens you’re too nice to insult!
But for the sake of it, you can all go and fucc yourselves
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Why don’t you have some sleep?
Was supposed to be me, not the entire forum 
. But I get that it was sarcasm, so i guess its ok.
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Yeah, I think I will very soon.
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Wish you a good sleep Bowens when you do go to sleep.
Yea my insult was absolutely pathetic anyway.
Well at least I tried.!
you’re sickly nice, from what I’ve gathered.
it’s a good way of putting it.
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Oh OK. Should I leave you alone? Not sure how much it bothers you.
nope, you don’t gotta leave me alone, nothing’s bothering me.
I can’t really change it in some circumstances it has to do with paranoia.
yeah. you know this site is interesting,
cuz we all have problems, but sometimes
it’s tolerated and sometimes it’s not.
are you talking about in real life?
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I don’t feel comfortable saying in which specific circumstances
It is very strange though if I explained the detailed reasoning to you it would make more sense, but I feel paranoid to say that too.
Lol it is weird how that works, I defo have a filter
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@Daze I haven’t seen you in a while, why were you suspended?
If it’s genuine, I don’t see an issue with being too nice or sweet.
Better than being miserable.
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It is genuine, yes.
But sometimes it requires effort. Because of anxiety (sigh that same old word)
I think I’m remoulding my brain connections to a more helpful state
Lol.
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Sounds positive to me
Anxiety can be managed
You seem to post a lot about insecurities about dealing with people. I don’t think you should worry so much and try and go with the flow
I am glad I am Autistic, as I do not have a burden like this
But I do understand you seem to be soul searching, and trying to be better at relationships and stuff like that - which is not a bad thing at all
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