I’d been doing pretty well, and I was seeing regular improvement overall. But it’s like I just broke, and I don’t know why or what’s wrong. I’m having major issues with paranoia. I am crying all the time (crying right now, but I don’t know why), staying in bed under the covers and just lying there. I can’t sleep well- I was up 3 times between 11pm and 1:30am last night and just gave up and stayed up for a while, staring at my numbers. I’m hyperfocused on my budget and expenditures; I can stare at it for hours. I feel antisocial, am not being very hygenic yet don’t care (even letting under my nails get dirty which is usually a whole thing with me), and I’m back to not leaving the house. I know it sounds like depression, but the focus on my numbers feels more like mania. I’m not suicidal nor do I wish to self-harm, so I can’t go to a hospital. But I’m not me right now, and I want me back. In case anyone wants to know, I’m on seroquel 150mg, trazadone 100mg, diazepam 10mg as-needed, amitryptiline 50 mg, and mementine (or something like that?) being used off-label for OCD. I think that’s everything. We’ve made one change recently and that is to seroquel. We dropped it to 150mg because of weight gain. I think the goal is to get off it completely. I’m just gaining and gaining. Anyhow… I’d love y’all’s thoughts.
I don’t have any suggestions, but I’m hoping you feel better soon @Happy_H. 
That sounds rough. I hope you’re feel better soon.
Is the 150mg seroquel for psychosis because at that dose it doesn’t function as an AP
If this is for psychosis then it seems obvious to me what the problem is
Maybe there’s more to it idk
Hope you feel better
I agree with the others that this seems like the problem. But I’m not a doctor. It seems to be the only thing that has changed.
Thank you, @HollyHobby, @Jimbob, @TheStrange, @everhopeful.
I wondered about the seroquel as well. We started it for AP purposes, but because I was doing well with the Abilify added, my pdoc decided to decrease in the light of all the weight gain and hope that the Abilify would be sufficient. So we’ve been slowly decreasing.
It’s sounds like it’s the drop in the Seroquel
I would talk to your pdoc about it
I have an appointment with her in early September but sent her a note. She’s been suggesting that I journal because of the uptick in paranoia. That’s fine when I’m aware of it, but sometimes, I think I don’t realize I’m being paranoid.
What dose of Abilify are you on? Is it 10mg or higher?
12mg of Abilify.
Wow my dr is wanting to do the same thing, switch to abilify only from seroquel, and I’m worried that this will happen to me too. Definitely contact your dr and let them know the drop is making you worse
I hope you don’t get to where you feel like this, @Froge.
Random, but I think your hair was brown in a recent selfie. I liked it. I like the colors too, though. You have pretty hair.
Thanks! Yeah I was impulsive and dyed it blue again and I figured the brown looks better so I’m trying to wash out the blue a bit
Maybe you have some bad days.
Could be medication change also.
Take care of yourself and hope you feel better soon.
Im dealing with intense emotions. I dont know if its situational or medication or both. Someone recommended a holistic therapist to help heal trauma mind-body-soul/spirit. Have had a lot of physical health improvements since just doing simple mindfulness meditation and breathing practice. It cured effects of sleep apnea, went to a church and people prayed over me–when I asked for help. It could just be a coincidence, but that day afterwards I checked my oxygen levels which had been a steady 80’s or lower and it was 98 or 97, Im not saying it was religion–but the community energy and being active really helped me.
You can integrate medication with physical exercise and yoga, different types of therapies even if you dont have the energy, I hope you find peace and a way through this. I took abilify injection in the hospital and was on 20mgs since out and havent been on it the past week. Its probably the best Ive felt in years, and I dont want to change anything but have my intake on Monday and have to try and work with my doctor to find the best solution. being off abilify has made me feel better but I think I need it still. i dont know what would replace it I also want to continue the depakote but at a lower dose. Now isnt the right time for me to keep making changes…Im going to try and get my doctor to start at a low dose so they stop messing with the ups and downs. I would rather not take abillify at all if I can. I dont like how it makes me feel inside…
dont worry its ok. You’re not alone, we’re a community here too.
Sounds like it’s the decrease in seroquel.
Can you get on a higher dose again or a higher dose of abilify and talk to your dr about it?
Hope you will feel better soon.
Hang in there.better days will surely come for you soon.
I gained 90 pounds in one year on Seroquel, plus it never changed/helped my mental health. Can you try something else instead?
She has me on Abilify in the hopes of getting me off of the seroquel. Tbh, it does help me, though. And I think a lot of my weight gain is unhealthy eating and not getting my rear up and moving. Not all of it, to be sure, but my unhealthy lifestyle definitely contributes.
How are things going with your reclined stationary bike?
Seroquel also makes it harder to eat a proper diet in my experience, but not impossible. Seroquel helps me a ton too so I’m not ready to go off.