felt weird tonight. All racey and pacey. Full of rhyming. And voices.
Check this is what I wrote in my journal…
“Kill kill kill, don’t think that everything is ok, liar liar pants on fire (Alien) leave her alone everything is going to be alright (Sarah)
There we go again merry go round broken record stuck stuck go luck truck luck ■■■■ huck DON’T GO DOWN THAT ROAD AGAIN why why tell me why high light. Pen highlighter light high high sigh. Stop it stop it write write write what is coming from my brain train of thought. Wart caught me. Stop it…why now…how now brown cow…stop writing! There!
Hair …fruit…kiwi…take Seroquel…read…sleep…no more Alien no more salient aliens from outer space…”
And so it goes. Spoke to my husband and he tried to ground me and I was laughing and playing.
Hope im not breaking down again… Wtf??
About a half hour ago took my Seroquel and now I’m getting sleepy so at least I can rest…
My pdoc is taking me very slowly off amisulpride. My therapeutic dose was 400mg, and now I’m on 200mg for about two or three weeks.
It’s my minimum dose, and after a week of 200mg I felt some symptoms return, first inserted thoughts then voices. Delusions got stronger as well.
My pdoc is now putting me on Seroquel and I’ve taken 100mg for a week so far. Hope it works when it’s pushed higher, and that when amisulpride is lowered below minimum dose, I won’t go into deep end!