Not a day goes by that I don’t think about drugs. I’ve been having the occasional beer, but I’ve decided to slow that down as well.
Now I can’t stop thinking about having a beer. I know it doesn’t solve any problems.
I wish I could get a natural high somehow. And before you say Runner’s High, don’t.
I don’t run. I can’t. My joints ache and I’m really out of shape.
I just don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve even considered going off my meds just to feel the high of psychosis, but I know that’s a terrible idea.
I feel so lonely in this.