They still couldn’t find my file (why I don’t know! The pdoc was also confused about it) and so a temporary file was arranged. At least I only waited two hours not three.
So after explaining things again the new pdoc got the head dr who spoke to me last month to give some input.
I was offered another antidepressant fluoxetine but it only comes in capsules and I was upset about that because I can’t swallow whole capsules except with a lot of difficulty.
So I said I’m reluctant but she just said why don’t I give it a try. That the med will not help with my problems in life but it will lift my mood and energy. So I came out from outpatients with a bag of meds.
She also said I’d benefit from seeing psychologist. I wasn’t too happy about this either - I’m not fond of talk therapy but hubby agrees and said he wants to see one too, so we’re going to one.
Dr also asked about my self harm and what is my plan if I have urges again. She advised checking in at hospital if I cut again.
It’s been a few days since then (I saw her wedn) and haven’t taken fluoxetine yet. But I’m coping just just and even got some difficult things done so I’m not too worried.
Friday was such a crap day - amongst other difficulties that day, I had a little accident driving out of the complex gate - I tailgated and the gate came back and hit the car and dented it on the right fender and now I can’t open the driver’s door (we have right hand drive here in SA) so the car needs to go to panelbeater and get service this week.
Surviving as usual at least.