so i had voices in my head,tactile hallucinations etc and got advice here, thanks to everyone who helped me.
my psych said it was worsening of my bipolar, and has given me new anti deps, new anti psychotics, and will soon give me a new mood stabiliser.
my problem is that i feel ‘social’ which i find hard to cope with, i have aspergers syndrome, and have no friends, i have agoraphobia and never leave the house alone, i go out only with my husband (also he has aspergers too) or with my adult son (also has aspergers).
it seems so peculiar to me to want to talk to people, be social, or want to go out. i dont feel like myself at all. i am too scared to talk to people anyway, but why do i feel it?
i also feel less obsessed, i am used to always have an obsession that takes up all my time, such as collecting stamps.
now i am not obsessed i am deathly bored and have no idea what to do all day.
i have no idea what ‘normal’ people do with their time, i am used to be in my own dream world with my obsessions.
Go to museums alone, or with your family! Get some icecream! Listen to some music.
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so you mean go outside and do activities? will that make me feel better when i go home at the end of the day?
i can certainly try it, and thanks for offering advice.
Those are just good distractions for not obsessing over our problems, and feel “normal”, we need it too 
i don’t go out much too, just when i need to. i can force myself to go out, and my therapist encourages me to do that, but what is the point when i don’t enjoy it?
i know what you mean prospero, i feel like that usually, but now i feel a strong urge to go out, which i dont understand, it must be the medication giving me these feelings, i never had it in my life before, i have always been unsociable.
well perhaps that will be a good thing for you? most people get pleasure from socialising, and… if you have an urge to go out and socialise, and enjoy doing it, you can have fun going to the cinema, a restaurant, a theatre and many other things. you say that you don’t feel like your old self, but maybe that is a good thing? being stuck inside all the time isn’t much fun.