Its interesting to see what the other side has to say. I personally have been involved within myself and others only from my perspective. If i were healthy or lets say pre psychosis i wonder how i might view it or someone who has it.
I got the sense though that they are just people living thier lives and someone in thier life with sz just makes like thunderclap of chaos affecting themselves and everyone that cares about them. I personally, after reading some stories, realised that i didnt really know the extent in which i affected other people. And its even hard to conceptualize that.
But i even had a bit of a funny moment where i imagined all of a sudden there is someone who just lets loose off the reservation and starts derailing everything. Like a wake of terror. And i thought. No wonder they have to try and wrangle us. Its like gosh. How as a normal citizen you see that happening to someone and know wtf is going on.
And its true most of the only solution on there thats agreed upon is medication working. Which i mean from the perspective of a parent or something. Must look like a miracle but there is so much more going on with a person with sz. Its almost like forget going to work and eating properly or going to the dentist. You are literally battling for your sanity and trying to comprehend catestrophic existential shifts of perception. All the while mourning the loss of your life and your self. Anyway rambling aside…
I realised the scope of what this caused in my life and others around me and i walked away with a different perspective. Even had a chat with my dad about it and told him i understand he did and is suffering now. He told me though it was never my fault. And hes right it wasnt. But i feel a sense of responsability to myself and the people in my life that care about me. To get my act together best i can.
Anyway thanks for listening. Felt like sharing this.