Weed just became legal in my state and there’s no shortage of high grade stuff around. So I was out fishing with my uncle and he talked me into smoking some weed.
Let me go back a bit to when I use to smoke every day. From my late teens until my early 20 I smoked every day. For 4 years I was high from the time I woke up until the time I went to sleep. I couldn’t function without the stuff. I was dependent on it until I got severe psychosis.
I got paranoid as hell after smoking with my uncle but I was able to talk myself out of the paranoia. After that it just made me hungry and tired.
Now that it’s legal in my state I figured I’d give it a shot. I have no plan on making a habit out of it. I didn’t enjoy it.
Smoking the other day for the first time in 15 years gave me insight into my addiction to the stuff. Now I know why I needed it all the time way back then.
Smoking weed heightened my senses touch smell taste and it dulled my pain. Back in the day when I smoked all the time I couldn’t get any enjoyment out of life unless I was high. Looking back In retrospect everything was dull when I wasn’t high. I couldn’t get enjoyment out of anything unless I was high because I became use to the way it heightened my senses.
I remember when I got out of the hospital because of psychosis I had not smoked weed in 12 months. I had to relearn how to enjoy life without being high. But it felt good to get enjoyment in life without it. It was the most at peace I felt in a very long time.
My uncle left the rest of the weed in my tackle box and I flushed it down the toilet. I can enjoy life without getting high.