I smoked weed for about ten years. Real heavy smoker. I remember if I was running out I would put so much effort in guarantee my next baggie.
Now I know it is not technically addictive (so sorry if this seems minor compared to real addictive drugs) but I worried so much about quitting - even though it was ruining my life. It started off fine but soon a single drag would activate my paranoia/stress/desperation. I appreciate it doesn’t have this effect on everybody but for the folks that it does smoking would be terrifying.
I only stopped during my 4 month stay in a locked ward.
If I could change things I would go back in time and not do it.
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I have a similar relationship with alcohol. It’s been 155 days sober for me.
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That sounds like addiction to me. Glad you stopped. Try not to worry about the past. The present and future are all that matters now.
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way to go @crimby thats awesome news
When I smoked weed after I managed to score some I always had mixed feelings that I had finally got some but also sentenced myself to a vacation from reality (a little holiday) until it was all smoked (I have little self control). I kept going back to it even though it was no longer fun.
I can say I was addicted to weed, I just had to have it, this was 13 years ago now. For me it was smoking bongs and I could smoke them all day. I couldn’t go without and now just one would put me on my back. I thought it was just harmless fun at the time but looking back my addiction was a real problem and I really regret those days I could of been doing so much more with my life.
Without interference, follow your ambitions that support your higher good 