Or is it worth pursuing…
I went to my GP today and she’s gonna refer me as per my psychiatrist request. Should have been done two years ago when my psychologist requested it. I don’t know if it’s worth pursuing this now. I’m having second thoughts. I’ve read a lot of negative outcomes.
Negative in what way? For me, it’s not had benefit or negative. Not directly at least
They want me to get tested. Im not bothering.
Well I read a lot about the stigma for example…
I’ve gone 38 years without anyone even considering it as an issue so it must be either I’m masking well or I don’t have it.
Oh right, yeah, thats a big one. Pretty massive. People ususally think it’s not that bad, but in actuality the words autism of any kind rings “dumb” for “neurotypicals”.
I dont tell anyone my diagnosis anymore, because i know i risk or invite that above stereotype
If i could go back in time to childhood and go against the psychologist that suggested I be tested, i would say I’d prefer to be not tested.
As soon as my school friends found out, i was isolated by nearly every single one. I started in that cohort as one of the most popular, and ended up the most lonely.
I told my manager I’m going for an assessment I have not heard a response. I asked for work from home twice she’s definitely ignoring me … I feel like a problem
You aren’t a problem. Definitely not, but your anxiety or negative feelings are making it out as though you are. Pretend it’s a delusion, that you are a problem. Try to think up a way to help yourself or others so you feel better about yourself
When i feel like im being helpful on this forum or if i feel like ive been helpful to my friends/family, i never see myself in a negative light at all
Don’t let the anxiety or whatever this feeling is, dictate your reality
I unfortunately don’t have friends and the friends at school were not really friends. I really struggle. And I hate keeping on quitting everytime I feel people don’t like me. I thought it was paranoia at first now I wonder if it’s cos I don’t get them.
There is a benefit to getting the diagnosis, that would be therapy!
But nhs for me has been terrible for it
Its probably paranoia. Dont skip the assessmemt though! I think it would be good to know.
Isn’t paranoia more intense though… The only paranoia I ever get is the feeling that I’m not liked. And most the time it’s true.
I feel the same way but it’s not worth dwelling on
I doubt people dislike you.
Nothing wrong with having the assessment. I managed to eventually use it to my advantage. My employer is desperately trying to get employees to go back to working in branches and there is a critical shortage of experienced commercial insurance specialists in branches. I was able to use my ASD diagnosis to block them from trying to move me back. My contract is WFH, but they were offering me salary incentives to return to a branch.
The nagging stopped once my pdoc wrote a letter getting me the permanent WFH accommodation.
Yeah that’s what I’m trying to do. Cos she’s ignoring me she can’t ignore occupational health advice.
I know people don’t like me and it doesn’t bother me unless I have to work with them … That’s why I’ve quit so many. I’ve got to learn to stop doing that.
If people dont like you, that’s an issue i face too.
Im gonna google stuff now lol
Edit: maybe taking the assessment is quite worth it. Because self development can be identified
It could be like you say ,but just as legitimately it could be like my situation was . Everything was seen through a mental illness coloured lens, regardless whether it was an intelligent or sensible thing to do. Moving, and coming under a new pdoc , resulted in an Asperger’s dx 7 months after my 1st psych appointment here. For me due to my age, the damage done, the known lack of help and support for adults - I wasn’t thinking all that damage would be reserved. It was more about confirming I was right about what I believed . That there was more going on than just SMI.
As I see a new pdoc more often then id like , it’s the first time someone has even bothered to consider it could be this causing so many of my issues with holding down jobs , keeping friends etc. I’m kinda happy someone is finally listening to my cries for help.