I’m not currently that suicidal, I am just not actively. It actively comes and goes. I’m building a plan. I believe I am dead already and need to kill myself to go through the other side. I had a message in a song tell me that I am the devil and I believe that’s why demons are following me. I feel like an evil person after my court hearing.
I think that if you have access to a good resource that it would be wise before spiraling into these thoughts…its also nice to have a break. I wish I had done this before I spiraled into a poor decision and then ended up there in the hospital. You will need to tell them it in extremes so that they take u seriously though hospitals should be more accessible but its difficult to get the rest and recovery.
it depends if your able to cope with the thoughts of suicide or not. I dealt with suicidal thoughts for the last 5 months but it started to ease up as I got my life more in order.
I was only going to go to the hospital if I had begun to carry out my plan otherwise I just did my best to avoid it.
I know it may seem impossible especially right now. but you have to try and convince yourself to choose life. Im a hypocrite because I really didnt want to live the last 5 months and was looking for a way out.
actually 1 lottery ticket a week gave me some superficial hope so 5 bucks a week was buying me some time.
For me it comes and goes as well since I was around 21, im 33 now.
so in the dark times just know it can pass even though it may come back again it can also pass again.