I have my pdoc appointment on Monday. Just dont know if I can hold out that long
That"s your answer
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I donât think you can, I know I would not be able to, there is nothing wrong with going for help now
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So, I REALLY hate going to the ER to be evaluated at night because theyâre always really busy and understaffed. So, of youâre positive you can be safe until morning, I vote wait until 8am when thereâs actually a psychiatrist and social workers at the hospital to evaluate you and youâre not stuck with midnight leftovers.
But ONLY if youâre sure you can be safe until then.
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Get to the hospital for sure. Take care.
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@Moon. Have you told your dad how youâre feeling? Your dad should remove the gun from the house for your safety.
Itâs important that you are in a safe environment. Please go to the ER and let them know that you are feeling suicidal and that there is a gun in the house.
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Iâm really afraid of talking to my parents about it. They dont respond well. I know hed do something about the gun. Part of me doesnt want him to remove the option though.
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You should not be going through this alone, you really need help, been there and it only gets worse. Just trying hard to get you to go to the ER,
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I think Iâm going to sleep on it. I have work tomorrow and im sure thatâll make me feel worse but I have a migraine currently and cant handle the hospital setting
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Please seriously consider going to the hospital if you have an active plan and means to kill yourself. If you think you can be safe until tomorrow then by all means, but only if you know you can be safe. We all care about you @Moon and want to see you safe.
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I tried choking myself a little to see how it would feel. No I dont think Iâll be doing that.
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My Dad and I are 180 different personalities. I get depressed about, it but itâs amazing what a person can get used to. I think though (for me), anger is the emotion that would push me over âthat cliffâ. Truth be told a lot of us probably have a vague fantasy regarding it.
I try to remind myself suicide is selfish/and extremely emotionally manipulative. Many victims falsely think you get to peer down and watch things unfold after youâre gone, and that doesnât help.
I recently took in Dead Poetâs Society and the son gets back at his old man by using his gun. But itâs a heartbreaking reaction that both parents have.
Maybe watch that passage on YouTube⌠in addition have you ever heard about the analysis of the successful and unsuccessful suicide attempts by those whoâve jumped off the Golden Gate Bridge? Each survivor reports instant regret after passing the point of no return.
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@Moon Iâm really concerned about you, I just sent you a message. Please be safe and if you are actively trying to harm yourself it will probably be best if you go to the hospital tonight.
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I dont think itâs always manipulative. Thatâs not my intention anyway
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Please seek help, I donât know what youâre thinking right now but I want you safe.
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Maybe keep talking since (right or wrong ) my hospital stay was boring/stressful. They kept taking blood, I queried them on it, and the guy responded by saying âDonât worry weâre not going to empty out your lifeâ. Really strange thing to say.
Whatâs the alien delusion like in thoughts or feelings. A loved one of mine had sexual dysfunction once and said he felt like an alien. I feel alienated, socially.
John Forbes Nash believed his answers to math were being sent to him by extra terrestrials. As for the government and feeling âdeadâ I have no experience with that whatsoever, but get it out if that helps.
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That is a really weird thing for them to say to you
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They gave me rainbow sherbert(soirbet)(sp) and I thought it was a message from an enemy saying âRain? Sure.â As though he was going to rain down on me. Adeleâs âSet Fire to the Rainâ was being broadcast on the radio(It was 2012).
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You gotta see this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcSUs9iZv-g
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Iâll have to watch it tomorrow
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