My meds feel great. I don’t think I need to change my meds. BUT OFF MEDS FEELS BETTER
I found out it’s impossible to get license if you’ve had an involuntary commitment. Not like I’m ever going to be able to “overcome my illness” anyway.
I have had an MRI done. It showed gray matter loss consistent with schizophrenia. There can never be any doubt for the rest of my life. I have schizophrenia, proven by physical and observable brain damage
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How can I be unstable when I’m a MASTER RORSCHACH INTERPRETER?? I should definitely become a psychologist if I ever “overcome my illness” like WHAT ILLNESS???
Or it’s the meds… That’s what I’m worried about.
My MRI was done before I started meds. Another MRI done 4 years later showed no further gray matter loss. The meds have prevented further brain damage
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Wow really that’s very interesting makes me reconsider…
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A sample size of 1 isn’t enough to draw any clear conclusions, but it was significant enough to stop my yearly quest to get off meds.
Ninjastar is correct. AP’s help stop the cell loss from psychosis. Psychosis is neurotoxic and leads to neuron death. People who are untreated show shrinking of the brain. Antipsychotics help protect against this.
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Okay you know HHHWHAT I’mma try to get on LATUDA like my doctor recommended because risperidone is only effective to an extent for me, even with the Vraylar, because I am an ULTRA-RAPID METABOLIZER of risperidone meaning I have to be on higher doses than normal and even then it’s not going to be that effective. I think I need some DTwooooo receptor BLOCKAGE! That the risperidone is not giving me! The reason why I’m feeling this way is because my doctor wanted to get me on just one antipsychotic so she had me lower the dose of the risperidone. But the problem is the taper plan she created is far too fast and I have been struggling! AND Vraylar is D3-preferential partial agonist, whereas risperidone is D2 blocker so it makes sense that there will be problems! I think I’m going to go back up to my normal dose and tomorrow my doctor told me to call her over the phone so I’ll do that.
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But I really do think I can talk to spirits and it is terrible that these poison meds make the spirits go away! I am a shaman, I am a prophet, I am a priest, I am a magician! But not with these meds… with these meds I’m just another crazy person.
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But it’s about the dialectic right. There’s the dialectic between fiery beauty, psychosis, meaning, mania, spiritual exaltation and the humdrum of everyday life, stability, placidity, and peace. Do I choose TRUTH or do I choose PEACE?
At least you understand the real, biological, chemical reasons this is happening. Can you call crisis tonight? I’m worried about you waiting until tomorrow.
I’m not gonna call crisis because chances are they will take me to the hospital. I’ll just tell my dad what’s going on and hang out with him and try to put this out of my mind. I’m not a danger to myself or others right now.
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This makes sense. Listen to this:
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I learned that manic belief patterns never end well, and that people ultimately crave balance and contentment, not endless, unquenchable desire.
Meds let you get to the balanced, contented state.
All that grandiose meaning being contrived from ideas of reference is manifested as you chasing your own tail, as you are the one making the connections, and making the meaning up as you go along. You need to create your own purpose, not glean it from the randomness of the universe. If you change your direction with every little bit of stimulus you receive, you’ll get nowhere, fast.
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I appreciate that. Your comment really struck a chord with me. I am feeling more together after talking to my friend, and I took my meds even though it’s a bit early.
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I’m glad you took your meds. Hopefully you be a little more of sound mind soon. I know it sucks to take meds but they’re in our best interest.
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Just adding my opinion here but going off meds to feel better is like turning up the heater on a hot day because you can’t stand the heat. You’re just going to make yourself feel worse, do more damage to your brain, your judgement, and take the easy train to wreck. That said, I’m mildly having positive symptoms and I’m not treating it. It’s not really that strong, though…
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That’s a great analogy @anon62973308