Should I feel dirty because I lead a double life?

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I’m regaining by degrees my pre-sz levels of social functioning. And yet I haven’t given up my unusual beliefs. They don’t interfere much with my daily routines, although I do burst out laughing sometimes when the feeling of unreality of my surroundings becomes too strong. Is it tenable? Is it even moral to share a world whose existence part of me denies?

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Yes even if the world doesn’t exist your experience does, so it is good to have a fun and fulfilling life.

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You would have to be purely mad to inhabit a world where your surroundings are so fantastical that you have deny the world where most of us reside all the time.

It is not a question of morals, but rather a matter of functioning which is a necessity. If you were truly authentic to your unreality beliefs then you may be regarded as a tin hat wearing brigade member and really you don’t want that if you ever want to be taken seriously again.

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How could I be more authentic in regards to my unusual beliefs? If the world isn’t even real, just me and the devil having a chat around a fire in the desert, why bother? Everything is just a hallucination, but I do feel moral obligations towards other projections of myself.

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Quite the opposite, how about dismissing them entirely and living with us projections all the time :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

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i had your delusions i guess. i feel it’s real enough. even the matrix is real to me because of information and black hole ‘evaporation’. i thought i was living in a cosmic computer on a black hole hard-drive in 2-dimensional quantum bits on the edge of the blackhole in 2-dimensions. I was so ■■■■■■ up early on in my illness and had dp/dr, solipsism, and delusions of negation (similar to cotards) and sensory deprevation walking around. Basically, holographic principle.

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You are proper naughty my friend. :sweat_smile:

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I feel you, but ultimately is about being able to live with ourselves.

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I don’t believe this theory, how could a projection of myself have thoughts and experiences so different from mine?
How could a projection of myself teach me something new?
If we accept the common sense explanation of ourselves it is obvious that these things come from an external source.

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I know you’re right, yet I can’t accept it.

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