Before diagnosis and before psychosis I was aware I was ill but wasn’t sure what. I quit a job. I thought everyone there hated me and my colleague was moving things so it looked like I didn’t do my job properly. I didn’t say though.
I am back at that job. I apologised to the colleague and told her I’m sorry if I misbehaved but I’m not sure what I did. I mentioned I was depressed. And now she doesn’t even say hi or bye.
There are a lot of damaged people out there, @anon80629714. You’re not the only one. I always expect people to be nicer than they are. So I’m constantly disappointed and/or worried that people hate me (especially at work), but when I think about it, it’s just because they have their own issues.
Don’t take any blame and don’t give her too much credit. If she can’t say hello to a coworker who has been vulnerable and honest, then she has issues. It’s her.
Just keep being friendly. Whether or not she’s capable of being friendly back is on her.
Wait, so you went back to a job that you had quit 6 years ago ? (Or whenever your illness broke out) … Aren’t you afraid that whatever external triggers contributed to the onset, those triggers might be related to that work place ?