Does anyone else experience deep shame in their lives? I grew up feeling shame most of my life because I grew up gay in the bible belt and felt terrible judgement the entire time. Anyways, I cannot get rid of shame because it feels like muscle memory for my mind, and now that I have had schizophrenia symptoms for the past few years, it reinforces my shame and makes me feel worse about it. I always feel like I’m doing something wrong, and that some type of government agency is out to get me or something. It’s awful. Just looking for some advice from anyone who has overcame or made significant progress in the shame territory. Thank!
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I grew up a Catholic. I struggled with guilt my whole life for sure and can relate on some levels.
For me getting diagnosed was a great thing. I got on meds and that evened out all the other mess. I’m straight but I always got paranoid with people and found it hard to form romantic relationships with the ladies. I blamed everything else. I was shy. I was ugly. etc etc. It wasn’t like I developed an excuse. What I developed was a mind better able to deal with my life.
You shouldn’t be ashamed of who you are. I know in your neck of the woods that is problematic but some places aren’t as bad. Seek kindred souls and seek like minds. It’s better than dealing with the haters and and ignorant. Be confident in yourself and everything else comes into focus.
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