About 6 years ago, I bought Shaman herbs/dust/mix online. ( It was legal). Anyways, it made me psychotic and might have caused brain damage. If I knew what it was, maybe I could reverse the damage. I don’t know. Maybe there are medications besides antipsychotics that can help me.
Thanks.
i doubt brain damage can be reversed. you could learn new stuff, socialize more, treat yourself kind…,
thatmight grow new neurons (if that’s the right word)
like you i’m curious. maybe shrooms? did it smell? did it cost enough to be LSD?
I support that view. I think we should base our recovery on the assumption that life before schizophrenia slowly and insidiously messed with our brain. I don’t think a singular event like smoking some mushrooms can “destroy” the brain. Therefore, we should revisit our past life (pre-illness) and identify what we used to do wrong, then start anew with a fresh and more positive mindset.
You have no idea what it was? What was it advertised to be able to do? Also what region was this shaman from?
No I don’t remember. It was plant stuff. It actually was brownish and looked like dirt or sand. I think it was a mixture. It was advertised to do spiritual stuff, I guess? I’m pretty sure it was South American.
have you ever heard about neuro flexibility? Brain can’t generate new neurons, but it can use other to replace the dead ones. Its like create new paths of connectivity, replacing some of them for other that right now are without use.
In fact, we use only the 10% of our brain. There are a 90% on reserve.
OK its not as easy as I say, but more or less… there is a way to recovery.
Sounds like ayahuasca man. Or at least some dmt containing plant.
I’ve found this medication naltrexone reverses a lot of the damage done by hallucinogenic drugs.
Did you smoke it did you drink it or what… Another possibility is salvia. If you smoked it. If you drank it it may be ayahuasca. But you’d go to another world if it was. Did you?
It wasn’t ayahuasca. I smoked the stuff. I also did salvia at the time. I felt like nothing worked on me. Except that one time.
Ya. Naltrexone sounds interesting. Thanks!
It is thought that drugs can trigger psychosis and sz, in people that are succesptible to it. It seems you delved into the worlld of drugs, however, what drove you to is also a factor. Just having trauma from childhood and genetic markers can drive a person to escape reality, as does peer/social pressure.
What is done is done, there is no going back. Finding reasons and attributing blame changes nothing. Believing other drugs other than aps and the list of nootropics that you find on this site will heal you is little more than a fantasy. It is difficuly to realise this. It hurts.
Until more is known about sz and better drugs are pharmaceutically found you may just have to accept your lot and learn to deal with it better I’m afraid. It is nice to fantasise about a cure, but it may be a decade or more off. 
i was mean. unmerciful. a boss asked me, if it paid well, whether i would administer the death penalty.
i said," i’d do it for free".
(you may want to skip the following as it may be considered religious)
after a few rounds with psychosis, i changed. i searched for God to fight the entities, sounds, and such, i didn’t know the smells weren’t supposed to be present, and the rare visual ones seemed more like messages, or an angel. something good and helpful. at 33 i got baptized. i must admit, without psychosis i likely wouldn’t have picked up a bible. i suppose i viewed God as somewhere far away and not very helpful. now i know that God is love. and gladly bow to love. itis greater than i.
my own hate had been rotting my soul. psychosis was like torment. during it i had believed death couldn’t be as bad. it did however part me from the evil i had been growing. it’s been difficult, but i can say i’ve had a decent life. my life regained value.
life was intended for love. before psychosis i felt sure feelings were the problem. feelings weren’t worth the cost. now i suppose i realize feelings are likely the most important attribute of being a human. as difficult as it is to say, i acknowledge that psychosis has a place. i realize i may have been the only person that was living choosing evil, and the only person that needed it. it humbled me.
kindness, being patient, being merciful,…, all such things i considered garbage, are now highly esteemed by me.
are now given the place of most importance. and i happy i know that. 
I empathize with your point of view.
I’ve been an agnostic for a long time, but my recent recovery (since July this year) is nothing short of amazing. So maybe the universe (call it God or some other name if you wish) sometimes conspires to grant our deepest desires. I wished for recovery, and so far I am grateful to everyone who has helped me along the way: pdoc, family, friends, people on this forum, scientists who invented antipsychotics, psychologists who created CBT etc etc…
With that in mind, let’s all be careful what we wish for 
is agnostic a part of the dead sea scrolls? i’ve read some in those and would likely appreciate reading them all.
whether wisdom from Confucius, or Buddhist writings (those employers were most kind) or from wherever it originates, i as well am grateful.
i’m happy for you.
Actually agnosticism is not a religion
I used to be agnostic, but that belief has now been shaken… Anyway let’s not talk religion here 
Thanks. I am happy for you as well !
Keep feeling and doing good !
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