Ugh I don’t know where to begin and mods I apologize if this is too graphic please just remove it I just don’t know where else to turn.
So this morning I had a crazy graphic sex dream about having oral sex with multiple men and having to swallow a ton of semen. This was very triggering for me because when I was 12 I was forced to give oral sex to my friends uncle and it ultimately was a very traumatic experience. Anyway in this dream I remember I really wanted to have sex with the guys but they wouldn’t have sex with me until I had given them oral sex. None of this makes sense to me because I don’t typically even like guys sexually, let alone want to give them oral sex?! I was wondering if maybe the dream I had was because I’m feeling sexually repressed in some way or another? I don’t know. I just needed to get this out there. Why does my brain want to torture me so badly?
Look back on all your dreams in the past. Didn’t most of them make no sense and didn’t most of them not mean anything?
Well, this current dream is probably the same. Don’t read into it.
The past traumatic event reason for this dream. You like to have sex but not want to give oral due to the past traumatic event. In that past event you did only oral so that event influences you to think that men only want oral and not like to have sex with you. You not suitable for sex etc.
Anyway its just a bad dream just like bad hallucination which occurred in a dream.
I haven’t had a sexual dream in a very long time.
You should discuss your traumatic experience(s) with a trained psychologist. They should be able to help you recover at least partially. Trauma is no small matter.
Listen, I’ve had sex dreams about the automatic car wash before. Dreams are weird. Just because you dream something does not mean you want it in real life. Dreams are random mashups of past events and our brain trying to process and sort information. It causes strange things.
Like has been said - i wouldnt read too much into dreams. Ive dreamt ive stabbed up half my family before - when obviously i care for them deeply in real life.
I think anti-psychotics can be a culprit at times as well - especially if your on a dose that knocks you out for 10+ hours at night. The brain is a strange organ. Try not to dwell on it.
I hope in time when your emotionally available, there will be someone out there who you can trust; so that you are able to have an enduring loving relationship.
I can see why it triggered you but it’s just a random dream. It’s one dream out of a million and most dreams don’t repeat. Just don’t analyze it too much and get all Freudian about it. A lot of his theories have been proven wrong anyways.
It just depends on what you want to believe. To the best of my knowledge there is still no definitive answer as to what dreams mean, if anything. Theories range from “experts” claiming dreams are just little movies that go on while we sleep to the extreme of Freud and some others thinking that every dream means something and everything in them is symbolic. The fact that this dream triggered you is real. But it doesn’t mean it’s going to really happen. The fact that you would never do the stuff in that dream in real life shows you how inaccurate dreams are. The dream doesn’t mean anything, it’s what it triggers in real life, if it is still effecting you, that is important. My dad told me when I was 20 years old, everybody has sex problems so you’re not alone.
Do you remember the address ? I’ll google-map-street-view it, at this point in my life even a car wash fantasy would be better than the nonsense I keep dreaming…