Does anyone ever feel like they are being moved around by an invisible force? Like they are a puppet or a chess piece? This only happens when I take Prozac, it makes me feel like my true self but with a few extra features now that I really don’t want.
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If it only happens on Prozac I think it’s a side effect of that med. Worth talking to your pdoc about it.
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I am convinced (sadly) that I am being remote controlled via satellite by a group of brain researchers (the brain bastards) via extremely high tech equipment installed in my head and body. They sometimes let me just control myself but they have the ability to completely control my thoughts, feelings and behaviors. They then monitor my brain and physiological activity in response. I don’t think the force is invisible (it’s real people) but they are invisible to me because they control me remotely. Quite a strange and powerful delusion.
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Damn, that’s one weird side effect.
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Haha Orion11. No disrespect to dreamscape but I think so too. It’s most likely manic psychosis that occurs every time my depression starts to lift. I need Prozac like the desert needs the rain. But I that feeling of being moved around by an invisible force has got to stop.
I suppose if I thought deeply about it and that happened for a long time I could come up with a story like that too. The good news is I think it goes away at some point. I mean I hope yours does for you too.
I hope my delusion goes away. It just hit me out of nowhere a year and a half ago. I went from not being mentally ill at all to breaking big time and believing I am in a brain study/being controlled. I’ve been medicated since then. I know it takes awhile sometimes. I spose’ I got nothing but time so I’ll wait
Well at least you recognize that it’s a delusion.
There’s always hope I think. I’ve been so unbelievably psychotic and then been completely normal for a couple years and then unbelievably psychotic again. The brain has amazing healing potential is what they told me.
Are you working at getting rid of your delusion, too? Like, consciously rejecting it when it occurs to you? Choosing deliberately to live this life?
I ask because in my experience, it’s an important part of recovery. It’s easy for me to say, though - my delusions have pretty much all been harrowing, while yours must have been a relief, initially at least.
But I notice you talking a lot about your delusion as something you believe and something you’re waiting to go away. I don’t really notice you talking about encouraging it to get up and go.
I recognize it as a delusion because I know that if I state it as fact, people will react badly. It’s a conditioned behavior. I understand other people call it a ‘delusion’. I believe it to be true. I do wish I would wake up tomorrow and not believe it anymore, though. The delusion isn’t so bad but the horrible paranoia that I am going to be emotionally and/or physically tortured as part of the brain study is something I can live without.
The human brain is, indeed, miraculous. That’s for sure.
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Wow I was just thinking of making a post about me being possessed it’s like I got special powers this happens all the time,
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I mean my body is a flesh suit I move around but no ones moving me. Are stronger entities manipulating our actions from afar? Very well could be but not through direct control, more…suggestion…
I used to get this too! There used to be a man who would stand behind me all the time and he’d sometimes take control of me and make me do things even attempted suicide once. I’m pretty sure I was on sertraline then but am now on Prozac and haven’t had it for a while
During my episodes I feel just like my brain and body are being controlled. Rather, my body is being controlled by my brain which they are controlling via suggestion subconsciously. I feel so overwhelmed and helpless that the idea that I am NOT being controlled is mind blowing. It feels as though they have access to my subconscious so I have zero idea what they are pumping into my head, I only know I am suddenly dancing against my will or so paranoid I have to go to the hospital. My delusion is strong and positively wicked and involved in it’s content. Delusions of grandeur (most intelligent person in the world although they ‘block’ me from my knowledge) combined with delusions of persecution (suffering while they monitor my brain and body). At the end of the day, it IS a delusion of mind control. Pretty ■■■■■■’ hard to run from mind control. My big gun is Risperidone.