Schizophrenia robbed all of our heads

G’day yall, since I’m a pretty nice guy and I’m nice to everybody, I’d like to share my story on my diagnosis with schizophrenia… :slight_smile:

2 years ago, in late (2015) I saw a billboard near the town of a Mental Health Clinic. Since, I get very distracted easily ever since I was small until school and until now. I began to wonder, “Maybe something is wrong with me.?” or is it something is wrong with society?

I was a nice kid in college, but I broke so many laws. My mother told No Drugs… I smoked weed. My mother told me No Alcohol… I drank beer & wine. My mother told me No Sex… and yes, I obeyed her command! So on my first visit to the doctor’s office, he chatted with me for a couple of sessions. After a while, he diagnosed me with schizophrenia. I felt really sad because I believe it’s all my fault that I got this mental disease…

The doctor gave me Aripiprazole but it made me feel a bit heavy, lazy, and depressed. Probably the side effects? The dosage he gave me was 15mg. I think it is a good medicine to prescribe to a patient, but as it became too costly, I moved to a Public Hospital where the Government would pay for your healthcare.

So, I became a patient of a another doctor(whom my father claims to be the best doctor). I only pay a buckUSD$ in my country(i’m not from USA) to get all the medication and help I need. Before this, it was roughly 100USD$ a session at the private clinic. He gave me, Olanzapine and it made me gain weight… but the medicine I think worked pretty well. I didn’t hear any voices in my head, just that I felt that my nerves were damaged in the brain due to hallucinations, racing thoughts, and delusional thinking. I was on Olanzapine for about a year and a month. (From Late 2015-2017)

Then, this year I requested a change in my medication to Risperdal(Risperidone) 1mg but I don’t think it has a good effect on me. The voices in my head were so strong and so present. Then, about two days ago on Monday, he increased my dosage to 2mg. I hope it works out well… otherwise, I would probably go back to being on Olanzapine despite the side effects.(I gained 20KG being on ZYPREXA!)

I still take Sarcosine, and N-Acetyl Cysteine. I tried many methods to cure schizophrenia. I went on a vegan diet, took Ginkgo bilopa, Ashvagandha, Ginseng root, Modern Chinese Medicine, Fish oil, Salmon, and the likes. They actually WORK, and did improve my illness(even if it was a little bit), but they still don’t cure…

Why, any ideas on to improve this disease? I feel happy cause I found my friends…they’re in my head. But I want real friends. :innocent:

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can I use that line for my profile on another website?

lol lol just kidding.

my mom never told me that.
I think my mom knew i wasn’t going to get any.
lol lol lol lol

it’s not your fault.

the voices in your head are not reliable friends.

that might mean realizing that you are alone. but trust me, I’ve been in situations where dissociation was safer than being with the wrong.

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I want real friends too.

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