Before sz I was working and at the same time was an A+ student until I got sz in university. Now I cant even work an easy job and don’t know if I can live on my own, well I have to when my parents die. Is sz really that bad? Is it brain damage? Everything that gave me more energy made me psychotic, lowering meds dosage, boosting dopamine with a supplement, etc
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I am afraid of changing meds as I may get worse than now. I read about new meds that don’t act directly on dopamine receptors but I am not so sure that they will improve negative and cognitive symptoms, I feel like that these are permanent brain damage.
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Your brain is fine,you are just too young…
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Nobody knows for sure what it is exactly. They basically diagnose mental disorders from stable patterns of symptoms they regularly see. Its not like other physical diseases where there is an observable deterioration in an organ or other anatomy. I dont study the brain and really dont put much effort in trying to understand because there is very intelligent and more capable people, drs and scientists, who have done a lot of studying and they are still clueless.
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Would this be a bad time to mention how powerful therapy is? Even helps with brain damage from strokes.
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Hopefully your family leaves you some money and your brother(s) take care of you…better than homelessness or a group home.
Im 31 and plan on going through the dor soon. Its my only shot. I should invest what little money i have. Im making monster energy rich lol…
Working is my solution. Ive been disabled for about 10 years now. Getting slowly better over time…
I dont know if education would help me.
Can you try a coding bootcamp or a staffing company to train you to code if you improve?
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I probably have some form of schizophrenia and bipolar but I also show signs of brain damage.
My illness was left untreated for years.
It didn’t help that I was once placed on a powerful tricyclic antidepressant for decades.
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I can’t study at all right now, it stresses me.
I don’t think psychosis has caused me brain damadge. It’s rather that I have unresolved emotional issues that makes me ill. At least that’s what it felt like when I had my first episode.
I had a really bad breakoff with my first girlfriend and when I found someone else that I had feelings for and was seeing I had my first psychosis. I went on a psychosis emotional rollercoaster.
Went to the psych ward and scared the girl I was seeing. I didn’t get violent or anything like that, but she saw my insanity. She was kind enough to meet me after I got out and we left on good terms.
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I believe you, I will retry therapy one day. I only tried once and it was too stressful, it was an occupational therapist. What type of therapist did help you? A psychologist? I feel like I need to improve myself a bit before retrying therapy. Hopefully one day it will help.
I feel I have that too. Maybe a psychologist can help me.
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Yeah, a good idea for me too. I applied for psychologist twice, but they turn me down.
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I am still seeing a psychologist at the first episode psychosis clinic I have been in for a long time. I like being in a clinic that specializes in psychosis. I didn’t find the therapy very helpful on risperidone I couldn’t stop pacing now I can sit still again.
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I have been helped by both. The occupational therapist was a godsend after the strokes. I very much appreciate the psychologists as well now. I used to fight them at first, now I realize they’re just there to help me get through a battle with fewer wounds. They even help me avoid the battles now!
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I believe I had brain damage all along.
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I also believe I had that, since I was born. I always had weird thoughts since I waa born. I guess sz can be genetic.
One thing that suggests I have brain damage is that I’m so one sided. For example, I eat with my right hand. Also, I kick with my right foot, and down the list of choosing which side of the body to utilize,
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Its not brain damage to have a dominant side. Most people arnt ambidexterous
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Well, my education about schizophrenia may not be as recent as yours.
In 1997, I took part in a Schizophrenia Sibling Study in Washington, DC. I went to that study, and three of my siblings also went to those three days of testing.
One of the simple features at that test was to answer 30 questions as to which side of the body. if either, was favored in each of the activities they asked about. I hold my cigarette in my left hand, but every other measure made me using my right side to the exclusion of my left side.
Around that time, another study was looking at family movies of children who later became schizophrenic. The study was looking to see if five year olds and such who later became schizophrenics were already favoring one side to the exclusion of the other side.
But your education may be more current than mine.
Incidentally, at that test I got to make eye contact with the famous Dr. Torrey and look at his face in person. He looked all right.
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I’d have liked to have seen a therapist who actually helped me cope better with stressful sessions . Instead I saw two c 1998 and in 2002 who adopted a ‘If you want to be a good person…’ approach as though I was a moral degenerate. Needless to say they got dumped rather quickly. Therapists should be intelligent enough to know that making moral judgements about you is not part of their remit.
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