When people are in my mind sometimes I say things I don’t mean, but if they heard them they might not believe it. I hate when this happens I seem so rude or perverted or racist even though I am not. I do not want to go insane around other people. It is embarrassing and sometimes makes them even more mad at me. When I am like this I hope nothing bad comes of it. I am afraid of people reading these intrusive thoughts because I know they wouldn’t understand. I can not hurt people with my thoughts and I hope not. There was a lady at the local drug store who wanted to strike up a conversation and I was so nervous trying to think a good thoughts that I did not talk to her. I told her I was under the weather. I hope she didn’t feel like I did not care. When I am being watched i try to think good thoughts or nothing at all, but I have someone put images and words in my mind and it sounds really bad. I hope I will be more sane and normal and not be afraid of these people. I want to look young but act my age.
I was unmedicated for three years before getting help. I cursed and said really bad things. Idk . Maybe a med adjust for you?
I check up on my medication.
I worry about people hearing my thoughts, too. Not necessarily because i’m thinking bad things about them, but just because i don’t want people hearing my private thoughts. I’ve been told this isn’t possible but it still bothers me. It’s one of the factors in my decision not to go out much.
I used to feel that way but I go out to drink cocoa, and shop and maybe people watch, my sister says I pretty much go undetected.
I hope you will be okay.
Thanks roxana! Wish you the best.
That’s good! I’m glad you’re able to go out. I go out for things i need, like i just got back from picking up meds at the pharmacy. I just don’t really go out unless it’s something i really need.
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