Okay, how do I explain this properly. My 12 year old kitty has been extended a couple years since she was put on an inhaler, how ever, the other night she had a bad seizure. Now we think she may be blind, and she hasn’t really ate anything in two days. She hasn’t had regular bowl movements either. We have an appointment with a vet near by, but I think we will have to put her down.
I’m very depressed, and anxious…but mostly upset. She’s my baby. Has been my baby for 12 years but she’s in pain, and i don’t want to make her suffer just because I don’t want to let her go. Is it bad that I’ve come to terms with the idea of putting her down? Should keep fighting for her? No…I can’t let her suffer. and she is suffering.
I’m just so filled with depression, anger, upset, sick to my stomach, anxious and guilty because I feel I should be able to do more, make her comfortable. But I don’t know what to do. I sat with her and just talked to her last night telling her how much I loved her. She wagged her tale, but wouldn’t completely relax. Now she’s laying by her food breathing hard…and her inhaler doesn’t really help any more. I’m debating if we should bother giving it to her tonight and tomorrow, or just let her be.
Anyway, you probably wont hear from me in for a while after today, I need some time process everything happening with kitty…not to mention my own surgery happening next week when they remove half of my thyroid. I’m anxious about that too, I’m worried about the problems they said could arise from the surgery like being stuck with one of those voices machines they use in those anti-smoking commercials, or worried something might go wrong in surgery. Like if they can’t stop me from bleeding, or they mess up, or I just don’t respond well it…
And then at the end of the month I’m supposed to go up to Iowa for my grandmother’s 93 birthday. She’s been in and out of the hospital lately because heart problems and well I’m just so overwhelmed with things I haven’t had time to really worry or think about grandma. I feel bad. I’m a bad person.
I’m sorry that you are going through some rough times @sohare1981.
But I’m sure with time, things will get better for you.
You are not a bad person.
It could be your kitty’s time to pass.
You did not cause this.
I’m sorry about your kitty, I hope if you do have to put her down you know you are helping her with her pain. I also want to wish you a speedy recovery from your surgery.
@sohare1981. sorry to hear you have so much going on. As for your precious cat, I think it is more humane to end her suffering if her quality of life is gone. But I would keep giving her inhaler until that time to keep her as comfortable as possible. Also, I can understand your anxiety about surgery, but take comfort in knowing most go smoothly. I hope you have a good visit with your grandma, 93 is quite an accomplishment in longevity.
I’m struggling with issues of death, too. All around me, my friends are dying. It really hurts to lose people you once needed and loved. But, we all die, it can’t be avoided. Just love while you can.
…it seems like I either have nothing going for long periods of time then everything bunches up and happens all at once. It’s a good thing I don’t work, or i would be even more stressed out…I also realized today’s my former best-friends birthday. I haven’t spoken to her since she lied to me about loosing her job and taking $500 from me. She had been my best friend since third grade and I haven’t really dealt with her betrayal well.
I still sometimes wonder if she ever left the guy she’s been seeing that she could clean herself off what ever drugs she’s using and come back to being the friend I considered a sister. But until she leaves him, cleans up, and I can’t be friends with her. And I’m not loaning her anymore money at least not until she pays me back the $500 I gave her.
I’m sorry so much is happening to you. It doesn’t make you a bad person. You’re wonderful, and you shouldn’t feel guilty for dealing with things the way you need to. I hope your kitty can find peace soon, however that happens. I’m sure she knows you love her.
I’m really sorry about your kitty. Her comfort should come first; you are doing the right thing. It sounds like you’ve done everything you could for her.
I wasn’t going to say anything on her face-book page because she hasn’t posted anything in such a long time, but I noticed one of her brother’s, and her grandma wished her a happy birthday so I did too.
We have an appointment set up with the local vet tomorrow. It might be when we have to say our goodbyes, but I wish I could do more for her until then, but she looks like every time we touch her she feels pain.
I’m sorry about your kitty. You are not a bad person, I think you are sweet and caring. Maybe it’s just time for her to go. I wish the best to you and your loved ones @sohare1981. Happy B-Day to your Grandmother.
You’re not a bad person
it is natural to have so much love for a kitty.
It will hurt but you are not doing anything bad by having her put down.
she knows really.
say goodbye to her.
it feels like you are not done saying ‘hello’
It was the hardest thing I ever did when I put my dog down. She was suffering but I wanted to keep her around so I did for awhile but it wasn’t fair to her so eventually I had to do it. I know it’s hard for you but don’t let your cat suffer. I believe you will see her again in the afterlife.
When my beautiful Pug got cancer, he was suffering.
He lost his appetite and was going to the bathroom every where.
He lost a lot of weight and then the pain began.
I knew that he had to be put down.
I called the Vet and she agreed.
She’s barely eaten since the other night, maybe a nibble here, a nibble there but not really eating. I petted her when I could reach her on the floor today and you can almost feel her bones. She was already a small kitty to begin with. Now I truly thing since this seizure she had the other night she’s lost her eye site. She responds to sounds and when you talk to her, but she doesn’t actually look at you.
The vet told me back in St. Louis, two years ago, that her lungs would eventually give out on her. I do believe this is what is happening. We’ve prolonged it with an inhaler, but that isn’t even helping her any more. In fact I think it hurts her to push so much air into her lungs like that. We decided she’s breathing fine right now and not to bother her, just let her relax and sleep on the rug in the bathroom where’s she’s been most of the day since the man who came in to change the locks scared her. We didn’t know he’d come today, or we would have asked him to wait.
I do think when we walk into that vet tomorrow we will be leaving with her ashes. Before she was fine. She meowed, purred, wanted attention, ate, did everything normal now she’s far but normal. I want to just scoop her in my arms and not let go, but holding her hurts her so I can’t. I can’t get down on the floor, so I can’t cuddle with her that way either . I’m not so sure cuddling with her would be good anyway.
I’ve told several times last night, and this morning, and this afternoon that I love her. She wags her tail and tries to purr but even that looks like it takes a lot out of her. I had her for 12 years…but I guess it wouldn’t matter if I had her for 15, 20, 30, or going the other…10, 5… she’s my baby I will miss her. I just don’t believe she will bounce back from this episode.
About two nights ago she suffered a severe seizure and couldn’t see anything after that, and she wasn’t eating or drinking, or relieving herself. After talking with the vet, we decided she could no longer live a comfortable happy life. She was in so much pain the last couple of days and lost a lot of weight. Next week, hopefully before my thyroid surgery we’ll be able to pick up her ashes and a clay imprint of her paws.
I may or may no be on the next couple of days as I handle the loss of my baby girl.
