Im so annoyed with the SZ symptoms. I had a rubbish Christmas and I had about 4 hours of auditory hallucinations today. I was able to function - but it was just a god damm pain. Worse I have been having that awful crappy depression/despair thing over the last while.
I’m not suicidal by any means at the moment. I just look at the limited friends I have. They are all in relationships and getting on with their lives. Instead - im getting fatter and uglier every year. I want a better life - but the fun SZ induced brain damage has just caused so much damage to my life - coupled with some extreme personal issues.
Like - im sick of getting such a god damm raw deal. I’m just despairing… Like why do I have to be the punch bag of life.
Its just as well I have a lot of anhedonia or whatever, as I guess Id actually feel worse, if I didnt have the numbed emotions.
Sorry you’re feeling so bad. Hope you feel better soon. I got fatter on antipsychotics, and I had to do extreme dieting to lose the extra weight. A lot of us got a raw deal too, so at least you’re not alone.
I’m glad your venting. It’s good to get it out. It’s frustrating and hard to cope with at times. I still have my voices, but I’m getting better at ignoring them. I do a lot of relaxation so I can cope with them.
I also took up a few hobbies to prove to my brain that it can still do stuff.
You don’t have to be the punching bag of life. You can punch it back. There are a lot of us on here who are walking and loosing weight, learning more about SZ so we can over come it.
Have you tried joining a support group? There is a schizophrenia group where I live that has one and also an art group. They also hired me to run the art group once or twice a month for a few bucks Also hamsters are great pets, but don’t give them fresh vegetables only dried vegetables otherwise they will die. My hamster wouldn’t eat fresh food only kibble and he lived for 4 years. I am allergic to cats and dogs but not hamsters.
Also hamsters are great pets, but don’t give them fresh vegetables only dried vegetables otherwise they will die. My hamster wouldn’t eat fresh food only kibble and he lived for 4 years. I am allergic to cats and dogs but not hamsters.