Finally found out why I’m so ■■■■■■■ stupid lmao. I was talking to my therapist over how I had the worst time acclimating to my job, how I can’t remember stuff, how it’s been ten months and I’m still acting like I just got hired a week ago. She told me that people with this illness have really bad retention issues, memory issues, ect. So. There we go. This just kinda triggered me into feeling suicidal, because I work so hard to learn and understand, but I can’t do it, and I struggle so hard. When filling out my disability forms today my mother checked off the things I struggle with, and she checked off Understanding, Memory and Communication. So. Theres that too. Its nice to know that I can’t even keep how idiotic I am under wraps, everyone notices it and everyone knows im a ■■■■■■■ moron. I’m just not doing well, I’m frustrated, I’m depressed, I just want to curl up in my bed and never get out again. Working feels pointless, going to school feels pointless, everything feels pointless when this stupid ■■■■■■■ illness won’t even let me learn, I don’t even want to try anymore.
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Welcome back! I have the same problem. It’s one of the reasons I can’t work.
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