My boss gets exasperated with me because I don’t think as clearly or as fast as she does. I think sometimes she thinks that I’m just lazy. She put something in my performance review about not trying hard enough on some things. I went home later and cried because I feel like I run myself down with how much I’m trying all the time. It hurts to know that despite my best efforts, this is the very best I can do.
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I’m sorry. That’s really frustrating. Does she know about your diagnosis? Are you sz? (Posted in “other” so I wasn’t sure.) If cognitive functioning is diminished because of your dx or meds, maybe you could write her a letter to explain yourself if you feel comfortable revealing yourself.
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I haven’t been diagnosed with anything, but I had a psychotic break a few years ago that left me with negative and cognitive symptoms. I take APs so that I don’t relapse.
I don’t feel comfortable sharing any of this with my boss, but my therapist suggested I tell her that I had a TBI, which doesn’t have the stigma attached to it. I’m considering it, especially since it’s clear to me now that she thinks I’m just not trying hard enough.
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I’m so sorry, @anon1517417. I agree with your therapist.
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Don’t feel down. You try your best that’s what counts. Your boss is anal. You deserve more credit.
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@anon1517417 it must be so humiliating to work under a boss 
I am so sorry for you
Maybe find something that there is no one above you?
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You shouldn’t worry about it. You have legitimate excuses for reduced ability. And you have a right to work with a disability
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Yeah we’ve all experienced this for the most part. I lost two jobs because of incompetence.
I have intrusive thoughts 
I cannot focus
I told my manager I had anxiety but that didn’t help as I was making mistakes all the time.
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This is exactly what the worst teachers I had told to the students they wanted to humiliate in school. And then, as the song goes, “they went home to their psychopathic wives…” etc.
Don’t worry about it, that’s just bullying. If she had anything bad to put in Tue review, she should’ve done it, like “so-and-so missed the announced target on such-and-such by this amount of tasks fulfilled, discussed with her and her strategy for improvement is this [description of what you told her you would do to improve]” - end of story. Your so called lazyness is none of her business, and the company will not reward her for making personal judgements about you, as the only thing they want to see is more money so more tasks perfected.
She is bullying you, trying to make you feel bad on purpose. I have three solutions for you:
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Start looking up other jobs and attending interviews AND
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Go straight to HR and ask for a different manager, on the grounds of having been unnecessarily humiliated by your current one ( that remark she made should be the end of it in a normal company, if not, see 1) OR
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Don’t do anything and think about how miserable someone’s own life must be if they draw pleasure from humiliating someone like you for no apparent reason. Trust me, you will feel better to know that she is a sad, low-self-esteem and incompetent person who simply got a better job than you because she knew the right people ( usually in a very intimate way, but I can’t draw this conclusion simply from what she said to you, I am just being mean because I can and so can you)
Don’t let anyone bully you. Always get the upper hand.
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I don’t think she was bullying her but she probably has no clue about her functionality.
“She is not trying hard enough” is not a performance review. The reason why there are performance reviews is to give you the opportunity to improve and the strategies needed to do so. Not to subtly call you lazy, that’s for sure.
Whatever you call it, that’s a shytey manager, or at the very least not a helpful one.
If she is in this state it’s because she wants to be better, and the very person who was supposed to help her understand how to do it decided to put her down and let her leave the meeting clueless and humiliated.
That is downright bullying.
Where did you get this information?
The ideal manager of an ideal job might actually by a tiny chance help her employee by proposing training etc. Not in this world. Good thing she did not fire her.
She also said she think she may think she is lazy. It is only an assumption.
If you have had a manager like that, kudos to both of you.
In my various jobs, I only had a manager that would say such a thing once.
I asked for a factsheet, they printed one, lo and behold, the stats showed me to be in the first few places, judging by the KPIs set on that job. They simply had a poor work culture and had agreed among themselves that they didn’t like me.
I filed my resignation and never looked back.
On any other job I had afterwards, I made it clear I wanted facts and tips to improve from day one, and so I got them without any problem. It’s not an ideal world, it’s all about money: if I show I want to improve, you as a manager give me the tools to do so, and the company has more money because my performance improves. That’s why there are managers, to improve performance.
Even the worst manager I heard of, in my previous employment to the current one, while she had a very weird and unfortunate way of forcing people to abide by the rules even when they were secondary or not even there, she would be efficient in improving people’s performance and left her team members with a good plan for improvement going forward after her meetings.
That’s not ideal. It’s in any company’s interest, no matter how bad the culture is, money is money.
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