I had crazy psychosis twice in my life and the stuff that happened with me were very religious in nature. When i look back on my old journals from the times i was a teenager i had a lot of religious references too and some of the stuff that happened were like engraved in my mind. I have grandoise but i never thought i was jesus until my psychiatrist asked me if i was then i started believing maybe i am.
After the trauma, i was also in a car accident that i almost broke my backbone so i thought i was satan expelled from heaven and my star sign is a dragon Anyway after the trauma i lost any faith i had left because religion ruined me.
My family is very religious and maybe in my childhood that has affected me. My dad drinks smokes and parties and my mom is a christian brainwashed naive person. I have both of their genes in me and im a mix of both worlds.
After recovery i stkll feel empty a lot and jaded. Now i will start volunteering soon and i started a vegetarian diet and gonna give my all to recovery but i still feel empty especially in my relationship.
I had a call with my sister today and she is also a reborn christian 6 years older than me and she said only god fills your emptiness. I dont know what to say or do anymore. I was all alone for most of my life and accomplished a lot on my own. So it’s normal for me to not seek help or look for answers etc but i still pray sometimes and just say thanks to god for everything i have and all my blessings and i ask for protection for my loved ones.
Now i dont know if i will have one more psychosis but i just dont feel a spiritual connection anymore. People pray to saints it amazes me but i dont have satisfaction like they do.
Hold the heathen hammer high…i usta be a christian brain washed child…but children of the moon make bad christians…not enough substance…stolen from our common ancestors re written for control…
Their all nice stories…organized religion is no good for a sz…read more stories of the old gods. Of budha…learn the lesson and then read on the myans…its amazing…
I dont want jesus…there is too much choice…whatever gods only have power through us…without a follower they fade into time…jesus will go this way… They will steal the stolen stories and add robots aliens and ai…change the names…jesus will turn to lore be forgotten like all gods…
Science fills my void. Evidence based knowledge and research leads to effective “for real” treatments. I am a scientific mind…I find real hard data answers…to everything.
I just don’t have faith in God either. I can’t reconcile my scientific skepticism with the whole belief deal.
I do associate with Christians because of their virtues. I chose a catholic school for grad school. They are firmly rooted in my kind of talk. I mean service and understanding suffering in others. Those are great for psychologists.
Psychosis ruined religion for me as well. I don’t even know how to believe in it anymore. My family is also very religious. I respect them. I just say I believe but I don’t want to talk about it lol.
Now I just have a very generalized view of God or whatever you want to call it
Ragnarok has been started we die of old age well before earth restarts though… Constant end times is big in christianity…always need a disaster to remember your gods lol…
can’t you tell the end is near? I look forward to seeing Christ Jesus every single day…He talks to me in my prayers. I don’t know what I’d do if I didn’t have Him in my life.
My parents used to pull that crap on me all the time if I was out of line "maybe you didn’t really believe"
How the heck would someone know whether I believed or not? Sillyness I says
I was always religious, grew up southern baptist. After my first psychotic break, I turned to Buddhism. Then I got a little better back to Christianity. My doc says my delusions stem from my christian beliefs as I feel I am a guardian of spirits left in limbo (explaining my voices). I’ll stick with that.
Never been religious. Swing between agnostic atheism and atheism(not sure but don’t think so vs of course not). Very occasionally succumb to opportunistic superstition though at difficult times ie I’ll pray just in case.
I’ve never known it to work so should really desist from doing it further.
oh god sleepy bug i never thought i was jesus because i didn’t even believe in God until multiple people said “You think you’re Jesus or something?” After I had my psychotic episode. Granted I thought my life was an experiment, I was an alien, I was the president, but I never believed I was Jesus until someone said “You think you’re Jesus” then I believed it for years. â– â– â– â– â– â– â– â– â– â– â–
Anyway after the trauma i lost any faith i had left because religion ruined me.
