I don’t know. I don’t really have the words to offer much on the forums anymore. I feel like my vocabulary has become so plain. Everything triggers me into depression, and I’ve been numb since forever. I don’t know, I just need support and optimism. Life isn’t that bad right now. It’s actually great compared to before. I’m not ungrateful. Just numb. I don’t blame my meds, but they probably contribute, though they have improved life so much. owiehfoefwoigh Cheers
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I’m sorry this is hitting you.
I do hope you feel better soon.
The numb has hit me when the negative symptoms are kicking in… then I need a little help to fight them off. I hope you get to talk to your doc or therapist soon.
Be kind and patient with yourself. You just had a son recently… is he getting ready to walk yet? or is he still scooting and my favorite… turbo crawl.
Good luck
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I am editing/removing the link b/c it just dawned on me about the labels, sorry.
Maybe listening to whale sounds will take your mind off of things?
Oh I know how that feels to be down all the time. But, like me, you will eventually get out of it. Hang in there, and enjoy your new son 
Thank you. Just some apathy that I needed to share with you guys. My son is growing and learning fast. Almost six months old now.
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I think coffee helps my negative symptoms a whole lot. I sometimes really don’t want to get out of bed because of the nightmares and scrambled eggs brain I wake up with. It sucks but I throw down a double espresso then feel motivation to eat then eat and take my meds then throw down another double espresso and then wait for the giant spike in my veins of like five psychoactive drugs, if you include the nicotine patch.
Then it’s go time, off to school, function or die, A’s or its all over and my life is worthless. I then workout pretty hard. Some people think my routines are excessive. I want to be excessively strong and muscular and have been for a long time. I just don’t feel like myself if I’m not big and strong…albeit short as well.
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go for a walk in nature 
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watch funny movies
pat a kitten or a dog 
look at the sun rise or sunset 
watch the birds in a park 
excercise
yoga
know someone cares
bug 
hug
take care 
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**Are you getting enough sleep? I know that babies can keep you up a lot of nights.
Hope this will pass quickly for you 
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That’s a good point. We are up a few times a night. I suppose that I’m doing pretty well considering. Could be worse than apathy.
My son
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So cute!!!
gorgeous boy. enjoy him forever!!! judy
Thank you, I will cherish him always! I saw my therapist and she suggested grounding myself in the moment with him and just enjoying his happiness as he grows up.
Love is the answer and this we know for sure. -John Lennon