In the past, I would get drunk maybe once a month just for the fun of it. But the last 7 times or so, it hasn’t been fun. Whatever effect I was chasing isn’t there anymore, and while I hardly feel drunk even after large amounts, others notice because my speech is slurred and I talk louder.
I think I’ve been glorifying alcohol, chasing a high that isn’t to be found. I don’t like that I lose control over myself, even if just in a minor way.
I think I should stop the monthly binges. I don’t want to get drunk anymore and spend the entire next day feeling sorry for myself. It’s just not worth it.
I just get so bored sometimes. But alcohol doesn’t solve boredom, nor problems, it just delays them.
I was drunk in a local supermarket buying food
The women there start to tell me how to prepare the food and I could not understand a word of it so I smiled and nod.
She kept coming back at me and tell me how to make frozen dumplings.
I almost laughed out load.
It was funny because I could not understand a word
Sometimes it’s not about how often you drink but how much you drink when you do. I don’t drink most days. However I have a history of drinking a lot very fast when very stressed/overwhelmed by negative emotions. Not done it since I’ve been on the depot though(2009 on depot). Not feeling any emotions much negative or positive.
I’ll ask perhaps a silly question. What would people buy with their spare money if they gave up alcohol( presuming they should abstain completely due to addiction) ?
When I was homeless, I drank way too much. I had the beginnings of a problem. I guess it was lucky I couldn’t afford to buy alcohol very often. When I decided to get on meds, I quit drinking. That was in 2013. I don’t miss it. I have more fun now, being fully conscious at social outings.
I only ever drank as a way to forget the pain of my life. Once I started acknowledging and addressing that pain in therapy, alcohol became less important.
I still have issues with alcohol. I think im fine basically, I drink like once a week normally…my whole Saturday is "recovery day’. this past year I’ve been drinking a lot less because im not supposed to and im finding my motivation to do things is returning. my drinking was a problem in the past, I would just get drunk to kill the boredom, alcohol was one of the few joys in my life. but now that im basically sober I’ve realized how much time I wasted getting drunk 3 times a week and not advancing my life.
When I take Zoloft I have no issues being sober. I used to be a chronic Alcoholic. Then I started naltrexone the cravings went down when I add Zoloft I can’t drink one bit!!