well i don’t read, but there’s things i have to read at work, simple things that would be at a gas station, or anywhere i am i guess, but it really messes with my job, i’ll read one thing and then look back at it and it’ll say something completely different… i looked up if you can develop dyslexia, you can’t. unless you had some sort of powerful blow to the head. just wondering if this is at all relatable for anyone?? my job is really stressing me out. i went and hung out with my friend for the first time in a long time, i walked into her house and i heard something moving around in the closet and was so convinced she locked her dog in there?? she said no the dog is with my dad but i had to look anyway
i also get really paranoid but there’s nothing specific that i’m thinking that scares me, i just feel scared for no reason. but it’s not all the time… ???
I kinda drift in and out with a lot of things, I can stand in front of people, their lips are moving, they are talking but I can’t process what they are saying, I move stuff than later wonder who did it, then sometimes something can be in a place for a long time, but it is new to me, part of the illness I think drifting in and out
I just got done reading “The Music Industry Self Help Guide”, by Michael Repel. A guide for indie musician’s and artists.
Now, I am reading “My Antonia”, by Willa Cather. A classic novel.
Very different books, but both good.
I am very fortunate in that my concentration and focus is unimpaired by my illness. I think my twice daily meditation practice helps me in this regard.
i also get really paranoid but there’s nothing specific that i’m thinking that scares me, i just feel scared for no reason.
I’m diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia and that’s a symptom (hence the name). It’s not unusual and the majority of us probably struggle with it or have struggled with it.
I struggle with this daily but couldn’t put it into words this well. Gonna bookmark this post for my psychiatrist. Reading fiction has helped significantly.