Have done all the psychosocial interventions I am capable of but it is just too much. Intolerable.
Should I contact my CPN tomorrow. If so what should I say? I get the feeling they just assume you are seeking benzos and fob you off. I can’t see my gp because they won’t do anything without the input of the CPN. My CPN doesn’t want to be held responsible for anything.
My next pdoc appointment is 31st of October. I won’t be able to cope till then.
Unfortunately it seems the only way to get change is to make threats towards your own safety.
Was bad before, but this is exceptional. Am pretty sure it will die down in a couple of weeks time, it’s just what do I do in the meantime. I took my night meds at 5pm because it was so bad. I can’t keep doing this - my schedule will all mess up.
Have been taking 600mg of l-theanine twice a day. This is the limit.
To be honest I think I would prefer an increase in my pregabalin. Unfortunately these are being abused in my community so I doubt they would do that. An antihistamine even would help.
I know this sounds off a bit, but maybe that is the point. here goes…
There was a time in life I spent every, several hours pushing down fear. I had a job at a kennel doing dog training. Some large dogs were there because they were truely vicious , like put them down kind of vicious. I had my own vicious dog I adopted right off the street. Which i worked on.
I had personal experience and not a lot of much else because the kennel was dishonest of their capabilities. As many know, animals with that type of temperment can easily sense fear.
My face was beginning to twich from bottling.
Then one night, i was sitting there and my kid was watching Bevis and Butthead. There was an episode were they were adopting a dog. I will never forget " Bevis, the test!"
Something fell emotionally. i hate to say to say it but, yes i laughed so hard, i really did pee a little. I did not recover for 10 minutes. i could not stand. laughing kept breaking through for next hour.
Question for you: Is there anything you have kept locked away too? not something painful where it would be too soon, but something that has been stressing you?
can you type that into utube with the term “comedy” or “humor” or “cartoon”?
That stupid cartoon helped me… maybe you will find relief too? i know not permenant, but at least you might get a break?
God knows anxiety is bad. Anyone who has experienced a full blown panic attack knows what I am talking about. Maybe you could use a little drama with the staff who control your situation. The squeaky wheel gets the grease.