Do you ever think “man, why did I get this disease?”
Sometimes I do…. Like right now. Next month it’ll be 7 years since I was diagnosed.
Neither of my parents have it, none of my grandparents that we are aware of… my uncle had it on my dads side and my cousin on my moms side….
I don’t know. It’s kind of making me sad to think about… like why me, I guess…
ALSO- does one ever actually grow up?
Next month is my 29th birthday and I feel so immature…
There’s so much that I would like to say, but I can’t seem to do so without mentioning the r word.
So, to talk like an unreligious pirate: Arrrrr! 
Sorry, I’m not understanding what you’re getting at lol
I always figured it was the luck of the draw. I got dealt bad cards and I have to make the most out of what I have going for me.
Growing up? I’m 61 but still think like I’m 17. I hope or wish that I’ve matured, I’m not too sure I have. I haven’t reached some great pinnacle of wisdom where I have all the answers or got everything figured out. I stumble along just trying to get along in life, I just put one foot in front of the other on a daily basis and do what’s necessary to live on my own.
29 is still very young…give yourself time to mature…I haven’t grown up and I’m going to be 61 in April…haha…as far as poor you…you are correct…only 1 percent of internationally around the world have schizophenia…you are in the 1 percent…it can be a bum rap. sorry you feel down…here are some online flowers.
Yeah. Good point. There’s a song I like to quote that says “there’s only 4 aces in the deck” I don’t know, kind of makes me feel better…
As for the second part about maturing and growing up…. I don’t know what to say, guess I always thought I’d have everything figured out at some point…
Heyyy birthday month twins lol. high five
But yeah, 29 is still young…. It just gets to me that so many people my age seem to have things going for them…. I don’t know, like I’m the only one who hasn’t figured life out yet…
Me too, I thought I’d turn into a mature, respected adult but I still deal with people putting me down or laughing at me. I can’t assume people will treat me right.
Traditionally, I think Arrrr, when said by a fictional pirate, means yes. So, in answer to your question, yes, I think that people do mature.
Actually, based on recent research posts on this forum, they now estimate 1 in 300 have SCZ. It used to be 1%. Now they’re saying 0.33% of the population. I always knew it was less than 1%. Just based on what I’ve seen and that no one was like me, and blah blah blah.
Schizophrenia and ocd are the hardest things ive ever been through completely destroyed me although now im much better i cant say for sure why i have these illnesses but i do think i deserve them
@anon61987434 there will always be someone who seems better off…there will always be people worse off than you…you have to count your blessings…
It’s kind of funny because when I was in my 30s I thought there was going to be this great day where an intelligence entity would contact me and explain everything to me. Like all the weird espionage stuff I was experiencing. Kinda like the Mr. X scene in the movie “JFK.”
Well, that day never came!
I wish I could offer some easy answers as to why we get sz, but I’m just as clueless as the next guy.
We just have to work with what we’re dealt and make the best of things.
Don’t feel bad though. There’s hundreds of worse diseases and situations to be in in life.
Take care.
I’m 64 years old, and I feel immature. I swear, sometimes I behave like a 17 year old. I can’t help it.
In some ways I’ve felt very mature, and in some ways I’ve felt a little immature.
When I think back at how well I thought and acted, in my opinion, during that tornado that could have killed me and 3/4 of my family when I was 13, sometimes I feel very mature.
When I think about how bad I seem to be at “making friends,” sometimes I feel very immature. When I was living in the dorms in college, a nice Jewish boy honored me with criticism about why I “don’t have any friends.” I jokingly responded with playful anger, then apologized. As I recall, he smiled and said: “That’s ok. That’s why you don’t have any friends.”
Maybe, sometimes different parts of us have different levels of maturity?
One psychologist defined 7 different intelligences. I think the worst, for me, might be called “understanding people.”
I don’t think that any “human” is good at everything. I think we all have a flaw.
Does that make more sense, as a response?
(Edit) Speaking of flaws, this link says 8, not 7:
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(Edit) I put “human” in quotes because the original poster’s username is “human” (/edit)
Dude i am 33 and feel like an immature child. As i age i dont feel myself getting dumber but realising i basically know nothing. The world just doesnt make sense to me. But i think mentally Healthy People experience the same
I am 57 and most of the time I feel like I did when I was 16. I am not sure that maturity comes at the same time for the schizophrenia victim as it does for the rest of the world.
I thought why me before. I don’t understand what went wrong or why with my mind. I was diagnosed with schizophrenia in September 2015 but I’ve been sick since August 2013. I had just moved to a new city in a new state that month and then my mind just became tormented. I don’t know what caused it. I’m much better now with my Invega Trinza injections thankfully.
Nobody in my family tree has schizophrenia, just me. Which seems unfair. I think life is fundamentally unfair though.
I wish I’d been diagnosed sooner, that’s my big complaint. 
As for growing up, I still feel 23 even though I’m 53. I don’t think that’s a bad thing though.