After mania which lasted for more than 5 months and after that depressive episode began and its still continuing for more than 1.5 years. I have become dumb and silent. Is it possible that psychosis took toll on me? What exactly happens after psychosis of long duration?
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It becomes very ingrained in us and much harder to see the light
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Thanks @anon20318121 for letting me know. Is there a possibility to see the light. I am struggling a lot now. I have a son to take care. And a job to go to. I am not able to do it well. I always fear something bad will happen. Though i know it is irrational, i am not able to control it.
Yea it is harder to forget about the bad things if it’s been with u for so long… This is the problem I face too.
Meds surely help me though. I was always scared to be on a high dose but as soon as I did go on a high dose I started feeling much better.
What meds are u on ?
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Atlura 80mg, Oleanz, Lonazep and Burpon xl 150
Its taking me long time to get better. I am losing hope day by day.
Do you work? I am finding hard time to work.
Yes I work. It’s not easy but I force myself to do the best I can. I also need the money so I don’t really have a choice…
Working can be stressful but be proud of the fact you work. Take each day as it comes.
Meds bring on lots of negatives for me as I’m a bit zoned out someone’s…but I manage.
I feel sorry that you battling. It is hard.
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Nice to hear that you are able to manage. I have capability to manage stuff. But there is something always talking to me that i need to quit job and look for something else to go away from the family. I can relate to the voice and dialogue appearing due to the bad past. But i have to ignore them and move on. Its hard but i am not sure if its worth it. But nevertheless i am trying.
One question, do you manage to talk to your colleagues and keep relationship going?
I’m still single I don’t have a girlfriend.
However I manage at work. I’m quite determined to be rich so I push quite hard to get there.
I have people working under me that I control and I’m fine being a leader…
20 mg zyprexa has helped me lots. I’m able to function without being to paranoid
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Thats really good to know that you are a leader. I am still first level person. I am needing help in most of the instances. I am not able to do things on my own. I am not confident. But I very much want all of the traits. Hope something will happen for better through medication.
Give it time and let meds work.
I so knew you were in a place of “power” much-hah-hah
Hugs, and thanks for helping so many people out! Being able to work ended when I had a nasty hallucination. That extra income was soooooo nice. But I totally keep myself busy or I’d think…scary I know
I’ve noticed that Its made me restructure the way that I think as well as handle my emotions. I suppose its made me feel that Im a better person now in the ways that I handle situations. I’m more patient more now than ever. I’ve learned how to focus on myself more than other things. It really changes the way you think, maybe you’re not dumb? Its made me more of like a deep thinker rather than someone that has a quick witty response
Chronic untreated psychosis fries your brain and the delusions become med resistant…
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Your psychosis has disturbed your reality experience. You know what you’ve been through and that’s pretty depressing. If you realize what you have been through. That you apparently perceived reality in a wrong way. And you accept that then it is quite possible that your depression will disappear into the background.
That is difficult because fears are so deep in your consciousness. That’s why many people get a second psychosis / mania / depression because something happens that leaves scars. The only way to deal with that is to be very honest with yourself.
Find out what your fears are and accept that you keep them all your life. Or maybe you have a way that makes them disappear? It is difficult to estimate. Because I do not know your and your fears.
Psychosis is a very broad spectrum of variation. When someone is in a psychosis. He has multiple complaints. Sleep problems, identity crisis, ocd and of course delusions and hallicuations.
Many problems go away after using an antipsychotic. But what remains is what you have to learn to live with. good luck
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Hi @zeno , I am not able to work in the office. Everytime i get a task i fear that i will screw it up. And end up jobless. The fear is paramount. Is it possible that my brain got dysfunctional beyond recovery?
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Hi @stefan24 I am trying hard to find the ways to manage my fears and out of control thoughts. But i get into believing that i am getting thoughts spoken by others. Also i hear this weird songs repeating every time in my head. I find it hard to concentrate on things in the midst of out of control thoughts and repeating songs.
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After a few episodes I definitely felt the negative symptoms get worse. I used to be far more energetic. I had flat affect off and on for a couple years but that went away atleast. But the avolition is strong
The fact that you have these complaints does not mean that you have to lead a completely isolated existence. Sometimes you have to allow the symptoms. With in mind that it is only symptoms. Make sure you create a helicopter view where you can estimate what is true and what is good.
If your mood is stable, the symptoms are often well controlled. If your mood is not stable then you have to be careful. A person can have a hope.
People with psychosis are susceptible to fight or flight. That you get an adrenaline rush in unfamiliar moments and you ask yourself what to do. But you could, for example, exercise. Running for half an hour a day reduces anxiety and creates endorphins that make you more relaxed.
There are always possibilities. You can not change many thought patterns because they are too deep in the consciousness. But you can build around it so that you can deal with it better.
Do not forget that you have control over your own symptoms and that you will not be surprised if you do not want to. Whatever happens you can assess the situation well.
You could also use a mantra. That is a
spell that you say to yourself in hard times. Poeple with psychosis are vulnerable. Keep that in mind and build a wall.
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