Glad to hear that, @Qwerty1. 
@LED Oh yes itās incredibly disturbing how guilt can rule your life with you having no idea. 
At least weāre both more savvy now haha.
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@antidepressant044 look online at Guilt Complexā¦
I think this is where it starts fromā¦
When I first got sick, I nearly handed myself in to the policeā¦
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Thank you, will do.
Oh my, that sucks that things progressed to that point for you.
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@antidepressant044 āto that pointā No, that was only the beginningā¦ it got worse!
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D:
How did you begin to recover, if I may ask?
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Found a video that makes me want to get up and do things. 
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Recoveryā¦ well, I was first put under the care of the me the health team who gave me medication. (I was never admitted to hospital) I maintained close contact with a care coordinator and would see the psychiatrist every 3 weeks. The medication started to work but then I struggled with the side effects, so after 4 months I told the psychiatrist that I would no longer take them. I then started therapy and through therapy I was able to find myself again.
There are many parts that are missing from this but this is a general synopsis
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Donāt know if this is basically the same thing, but one of my early diagnoses was major depression with psychotic features. I was actively drinking and using at that time, so I think it complicated their ability to assess what I was going through. Eventually it went to sza. Then a few years later to just sz. I think maybe my depression had more to do with the new hardships one goes through when facing this kind of illness and the problems one faces when drinking and using certain drugs (alcohol, pot,speed).
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Yeah, warning signs for me are withdrawing from activities and defeatist thinking.
Thanks for your acknowledgement of how much the cat thing sucked! It progressed to me believing that he could come back but he wouldnāt because he hated me, and that I needed to follow certain steps to convince him to returnā¦ It ended up costing me about $15k.
Which is just to say that you shouldnāt kid yourself that psychotic depression isnāt serious - it definitely can be very serious.
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Idk what i am. But u should keep using the site. Its just as valid and u shouldnt feel bad about it
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Yah my last diagnosis was psychotic depression
Diagnoses change all the time many of us here have been through several. As long as youāve experienced psychosis youāre welcome here
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Hello, I havenāt posted here for a long time, but I was drawn to this topic.
My original diagnosis was schizophrenia (many years ago) and it changed to major depression with psychotic features plus some other things. For the past six months, I have finally been on a good medication cocktail.
Every day it kind of surprises me that I am not suicidal and that I donāt think I am horrific and unforgivable.
The reason my diagnosis changed was because for many years I had periods of time without too many symptoms and the content of my delusions is always guilt driven and my hallucinations were mainly visual and violent. Awhile ago it got to the point where I always felt bad and my brain was taken over by terrible thoughts about myself often and every day.
The first time I took my main medication, I just felt my brain stop doing that. Though it is also slow and even spacier now.
My favorite member of my family does have sz, so I am mainly on the family support page. But I spent lots of time here for a long time and it really helped me. @Rhubot helped me alot:
I hope you find your way through.
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This forum is for anyone currently or previously diagnosed with psychotic disorders.
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You helped me a lot, too. I miss you!
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I was reading about this that psychotic depression for schizophrenics occurs during the aftermath of the psychosis and can last from weeks to months. I think I might be suffering from this as well. Iām not taking anything for it just have been pushing through it. Itās very tough to deal with this feeling and itās very exhausting. This is the first or second time in my life that Iām feeling like this.
I think itās a combination of a lot of things combined with the fact that I canāt function the way I used to and me having to swallow my pride and humble myself down and accepting the fact that I canāt live the way I used to which is devastating in itself. Just thought Iād share my experience.
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Thatās post-psychotic depression, which is under-recognized and definitely needs more awareness!
But what the original poster is talking about is the diagnosis of Major Depressive Disorder with Psychotic Features, or Psychotic Depression for short, which is something different. Itās a diagnosis given to people who experience psychosis primarily in the context of a depressive episode, and the accompanying hallucinations and delusions are mood-congruent.
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My mistake!! Thanks for clarifying.
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I donāt actually know what my official label isā¦ Was last atypical psychotic disorder Iāve basically had psychosis since I was sixteen but havenāt got schiz label. Iām thinking it may be brewing but I have ptsd too so it may be I donāt get schiz label because I have trauma instead of pure organic crap they bang on about. Please keep using the forum itās very helpful. I understand guilt delusions, I feel every time I am genuinely happy someone gets hurt or something bad happens and then I hate myself its a viscious cycle,
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Why on earth would you think Schizophreniform disorder isnāt that seriousā¦ do you realize you could very well hurt someone elseās feelings with the same dx as you? Donāt try and trivialize mental illness, it all sucksā¦
If you say this why do you think you have something more serious? Do you want something more serious? Either way, this forum is for anyone dealing with psychotic symptoms. Also just so you know, Schizophreniform disorder is a part of the sz spectrum.
Sorry, donāt mean to come across as harsh, but I think you could have chosen your words better.
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Youāre right, I kind of contradicted myself there and I did come off as insensitive. My bad.
And again, youāre correct, what I have is serious. I guess it just doesnāt feel like it atm because my meds are doing wonders for me right now and Iām not experiencing symptoms besides anxiety. Iām grateful but I kind of feel like a bit of an imposter, yet at the same time, I ruminate and obsess over my mental health and I worry that something more serious is going on than what my doctors think. But thatās probably my anxiety speaking, itās pretty severe.
This post may be a bit confusing as well because I just had coffee which hypes me up and can render me unintelligible. But yeah. Thank you for your input; future threads from me will have more thought put into them, I really donāt want to hurt anyoneās feelings.
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