Said no one ever. Things have been done to me during my treatment. Some strange, some straightforward abuse. Spoke to someone who worked in the psychiatry and I’m told about the events that happened to me - “yeah that’s nothing new. These things happened all the time.”
I want you to know you’re not alone. Whoever you are, wherever in the world, it happened to other people too.
OOOH yes! The main trigger for my psychosis was a large dose of drugs taken all at once—and at the time, I wasn’t even being properly examined. For a whole month, they fed me VERY high doses of olanzapine, which, by the way, made me gain a lot of weight, barely helped with the symptoms, and made me hate myself even more.
I’m glad I’m staying far away from hospitals and unprofessional doctors. Since 2017, I’ve had my own psychiatrist—the one I’m still seeing to this day. She’s wonderful and never wanted to overload my body with medications I didn’t need at the time.
For the most part I would have to say I have been done right by most of my psychiatrists. It helps that I’m not a game player and I make a point of being honest with them. They can’t treat what they don’t know about.
I wouldn’t say my first couple of psychiatrsts were abusive so much as gormless. I have been a member of Alcoholics Anonymous for most of my adult life. It has left me with a powerful drive for recovery that is uncommon in psychiatric patients and that my early psychiatrists thought was unrealistic. I was told not to bother trying things. “You’ll just make yourself sick.” Well, I’m already sick so maybe I’ll make myself better was what I thought. And I did.
Having psychiatrists take away your hope to the point where you’re suicidal is maybe or maybe not abusive, but I would classify it as a dxxk move.