I’ve been out of a highly abusive relationship for 3 years now and being out is the only way I’ve found stability , along with ssdi.
I’m still processing it, but I’ve come a long ways. Today I noticed everything reminded me of it and it annoyed me but I didn’t break down or have a flashback. Which is huge. Just a year ago I remember having one of the most intense flashbacks I’ve had , it was over her. Look how far I’ve come!
I have some abandon like issues from my childhood, I was taking therapy at the VA but my therapist was always pushing me to volunteer, her answer to all my problems.
I’ve had ptsd or cptsd im convinced since my brother tried to kill me and beat up my mom. It’s gotten better over time but I still don’t sleep well. Lately though I haven’t been having dreams about him as often. They are really intense when they happen and I wake from them a lot.