Some people are just addicted to being mentally ill. They enjoy the delusions, psychosis, voices, etc even though they are suffering from them. It’s like self-defeatism or sabotage.
Personally, schizophrenia is hell on Earth for me. It destroyed my life. Ruined everything. I didn’t know peopel could suffer like this.
I sometimes feel I am psychic and can hear things from parallel universes, I’m immortal, I’m a time traveler, etc. Those things I enjoy. But I hate not being able to work, not going to school, being overweight, self sabotage with energy drinks and cigarettes, and having no motivation.
I don’t hear voices or see things. But I Had severe DP/DR which affected my vision and made me think I was in hell. I suffered so much but years later it reduced so I mostly don’t question reality and I mostly think and accept reality is real.
No, it’s the best thing that ever happened to me, right after crack addiction, two cancer scares, a four hour operation to pull out four wisdom teeth, and the time I got jumped and beaten up by three cowboys.
Hey Aziz, i almost died from minocycline because thats the only med that cures me after 3 days i mean yeah rock and roll no psychosis and depression but it almost killed me 4 years ago
When I was working through my first episode, at some point I thought I could choose to think of my voices as subjects of some kind or as hallucinations part of schizophrenia. I preferred the latter and sought treatment. Best choice ever.
Actual cowboys I assume. They were standing in front of a country western bar dressed like cowboys with cowboy hats. I had two friends with me, we were all 17. They were 19 or 20 years old.
Well, it shook me up a little but if you consider the atrocities that ISIS commits (and posts online) and the fact that this COVID-19 is running rampant and all the worse things going on in the world it was pretty small incident. It did feel good to get in a few punches of my own though.