It’s nice knowing I am not alone in this. We need to keep fighting and have hope though. Although it’s embarrassing for me being at home and older I have to look always at the bright side and be thankful for shelter. So many are homeless. Being thankful for the small things keep me going. But yeah the medication is doing a number on me. Takes all my motivation away. Makes me so tired. No dopamine. I also know I am going to be single for the rest of my life. I don’t really care about that though. Even before I was schizo I couldn’t keep a relationship. I know I shouldn’t be talking about God on this site and I am sorry if I am derailing this thread but the truth is my belief in God is the only thing that has kept me going since my first break down. Okay rant done. Sorry.
Yeah I figure I will be alone for the rest of my life because of no libido. Intimacy sounds bad. And really I dont know if I will always have this feeling towards life because I have been going through horrible withdrawls and problems since 2015. I think it will get better but I hate side effects. Yeah, my life could be much harder without family helping me. Really I’m lucky they have been there while I am suffering. No way I could work through it.
Of course I don’t give up on recovery, all my efforts until now would seem meaningless if I simply quit of trying to improve…
Probably I wouldn’t be happy even if I was at my best, I’m eternally unsatisfied with myself, which means I always want more from me and that’s what’s driving me to improve…
Hi,
Mom of son diagnosed with schizophrenia… you should be able to get help through the drug company to pay for your rexulti. Try this. https://www.rxhope.com/PAP/pdf/asspae2306.pdf
My insurance covers it, I was just stating without insurance I couldn’t afford to pay for it.
Your accomplishments are impressive, especially holding a job, being out of the hospital for so long, and driving. Those are all goals of mine.
I still want to recover!!!
I have not given up on that just yet!!!
Gotcha… that’s awesome!!!
i cant give up, its the hope that i will recover one day that keeps me going,
i have recovered to a good extent and i am grateful for that, but still rely on meds
I’m not beat yet, there’s still a bit of fight left in me
I consider myself recovered. I’ve accepted the illness and learned to make the best of it. Doesn’t mean I can’t still improve, but I don’t expect my mental health to get better in leaps and strides. Recovery for me just means accepting the illness and learning to be happy in spite of it. It’s a process and it’s sad a lot of people never find recovery.
I’m trying not to give up right now. I’m just going through a divorce to but I’m trying to but let it get me down. Sometimes I want to give up them sometimes I feel like I’m the Phoenix that rises from the ashes. Just have support from my mom right now and that helps allot
I think I have gotten as good as I am going to get. But I want to get better. I have been pretty stable the last 4 years but I have gradually improved during that time.
I am still so far from what I used to be but I am working full time so that’s something I suppose. I still feel like ■■■■ every day though. I would go to bed right now if my wife would let me. I have had enough for today.
Tomorrow is a new day. You can’t give up. I still take life one day at a time.
I am waiting for this min 101 I think it’s called. Someone on here says it’s supposed to come out next spring. I have high hopes. If I could lose the negatives I think I could be in remission. I have my hallucinations and paranoia under control. The delusions will always be there. I have learned to live with them.
Paranoia used to cripple me all by itself.
I’m sorry you’re going through such a rough time @November.
Why won’t your wife let you go to bed? Why do you need to be awake?
I had done so at one point in my life. And let me tell you I’m glad that I kept pushing forward because my life is WAY better now than it was at that point. I think one of the most important things in life, not just in regards to mental illness but in regards to literally any major life struggle, is to NEVER become complacent in your suffering. Fight, fight, fight for improvement to your situation. Because if you don’t there is 100% chance things will never get better. The ONLY way things improve is if you are willing to fight for it and persist. I’ve battled my symptoms for as long as I can remember so that’s nearly 2 and a half decades now and just now I am recovered. Whose to say in another 15 years if you wont be recovered? Does it suck that it could take so long? Yeah. But better that than never better at all.
My wife says I have to stay up with the dogs to let them in and out to go to the bathroom. But even if the dogs aren’t here she won’t let me go to bed early. I have to take the dogs to day camp every day I go to work. My wife won’t watch them. She says they are mine and wants nothing to do with them. Even though she may not be sleeping she won’t let them in and out.
I think your wife is treating you poorly. I hope you’re not offended, but she’s taking advantage of you. It’s got to weigh on your self esteem. I’m sorry you have it so rough at home.
Thank you for caring. I just have to start focusing on the positive and being thankful for everything. I know it could be much worse.
I can’t believe all the people in here saying they’ve given up. I mean come on people. Were the 1%ers in this world and we need to show the normies that we can overcome this illness and not let it get us down. I know I’m not giving up and hell I’m just going through a divorce and it’s fresh. About a week or so so come on people. Of your with me then let’s ride
If you feel what I’m saying and want change, good change in your life then give me a hell yeah