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I’m pretty sure most of us suffer from at least 2 of the following, but which is the hardest for you to deal with?[/quote]
Paranoia is the first symptom that creeps up on me when I’m off my meds. It’s the catalyst to everything else. I start to feel very unsafe, and I tend to cut off people in my life because of trust issues. Doing that causes me to fail at certain aspects in my life because I don’t have those people to rely on. I don’t like feeling paranoid, it makes me second guess every part of my existence.
I was gonna say paranoia, but paranoia and the others causes anxiety, so I figured I’d chose anxiety as it is the reason everything else sucks so much.
It took some thinking, but I guess the anxiety is the hardest to live with. It permeates everything I do, and makes it hard to get help. Going to the hospital next week will be really tough for me, because I can’t stop worrying about what to bring and who I’m going to be roomed with and how long I’ll be there, it makes my chest tight and fluttery just thinking about it!
It was hard to chose just one because they are all distressing by themselves, and together it makes for one big mess. I chose delusions because that is my most dangerous symptom as it tells me to kill myself or my mom. You didn’t put cognitive symptoms on there. They are hard for me too.
In my case they were side by side, which kept me awake for several weeks, which led to me losing 27 pounds such that I was back to my age 14 weight. I know this sounds crazy, but my flesh also smelt like rotting meat, and did so once again only 15 minutes or so after having a shower. And that’s the truth, scouts honor.
Definitely I agree with your opinion. Insomnia makes everything difficult for me. If I have a good sleep, everything else will be OK. So I voted for insomnia.