I think I’m pessimistic about the future. But it comes in the form of catastrophic thinking. I always imagine all the things that can go wrong, so I end up not making plans, because I’m afraid to.
Are you pessimistic or optimistic about the future?
Pessimistic, unfortunately. My movement disorders are getting worse and worse. I can hardly use an eating utensil. I have to be super duper careful with knives, when preparing dinner. I have sliced my fingers way too many times. Thankfully, I haven’t sliced a finger off.
I just don’t have good control of my hands. I’m only 30. I’m scared of how bad it will be when I’m 50+.
As for mental health… I hope I will be OK. But I am scared of turning out like my mom. She is Sz and very, very, very ill. She’s been in a full-blown psychotic break for a few months now. We have been trying to get her admitted to the hospital, but it’s not working out, so far… It’s complicated…
I have moments of both. Im currently watching the walking dead and so that makes me feel pessimistic. But its a good show so im going to keep on watching it.
Try not to form ideas about the good or bad of the future. It’s a slippery slope for me. That kind of thinking for me often triggers cascading thought loops. Doesn’t go well for me.
I’m afraid the European War will get worse, the weather is crazy and I don’t think we have a solution to it, the political scene in my nation is nuts, and I doubt I’ll ever get out of this group home without going to a nursing home or worse. Yeah I’m pessimistic.
I am pessimistic about the future most of the times but sometimes I feel I can do it or I push myself to do more than what I do normally which is bit positive. The fact is just because of thinking negatively I do not want to lose opportunities and valuable work.