Please talk me through my FBI beliefs

In 2015 I sent a letter to the FBI and CIA. I was sick, and playing mental games. I thought God was telling me numbers that I would send to them to help them foil a terrorist attack. I added “911” in there because I thought there was cosmic significance related to the fate of the nation at stake.

That, combined with my history of (2ish years ago) domestic violence, I believe I am listed as a dangerous individual that the government plays with to drive me to suicide or psych ward.

I was walking loops at a nearby empty parking lot at a closed down building the other day. I walked for half an hour or so and suddenly I see this car in the back of the lot. No one in it. Didn’t see them come in. No one in sight. Just POOF, an empty car.

Yesterday my Instacart order got cancelled on MY END without my doing so.

The apartment building were calling for me to get a studio will not call back. I believe the FBI has told them not to give me one. I believe they are attacking every aspect of my life because they think I’m an absolute dangerous nutcase, but only the nutcase part is actually true.

Please help.

To be honest, I don’t think much is going on. Your letter to the FBI/ CIA was not threatening.

I believe you are connecting dots that shouldn’t be connected. But that’s what we do with this affliction, isn’t it?

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I had sent a message to CIA once.

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I emailed the FBI and the CSIS a few times. Mostly to talk about being stalked by some dangerous individuals that could predict where youre gonna be days in advance and other strange things like hyper observant cold/hot reading to feign telepathy.

Nothing came of it i think, im still living a mostly boring schizo life with no call backs. Though i have had a slew of psychiatrists interview me about weird things and questions.

Id be more worried about occult, esoteric, conspiratorial or philosphical things you post online on certain forums. This forum is safe however, ive posted strange beliefs on here and havent had anything happen to me.

I wouldnt think too much about them doing anything like that.

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I emailed the FBI many times that they should protect me bcz I am Jesus. I have called the cops many times and told them the same thing, they transferred me to a paramedic.

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I am not really violent on meds, I am violent without meds. Are you violent on meds?

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No
Same as you
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Don’t worry about it then. Only when I threatened someone online that the cops came to my house. Otherwise you have nothing to worry about. Many schizophrenics do that.

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Are you on meds?

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That’s relieving to hear

Yes

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Sane Jeff and Delusional Jeff are always fighting in me

Jeff is not my real name

Lol

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i talked to a person who was mysterious
that is when my symptoms begin

@Nomad,

I think the logical side of your brain is battling the creative side of your brain. I know you are a very creative cat, so it can be tough.

But with meds, logic will win the day…at least it always has in my case.

Thanks for sharing because it’s good to hear other people have had stuff like that happen

I thought my parents were witches and everyone around me plus fire trucks were incarnate demons

Lol

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You’re welcome.

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Wow, the FBI and the CIA must get SO many emails from people with schizophrenia. 4 people in this thread alone.

I hope you’re feeling better soon @Nomad.

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I wouldn’t sweat it. I’m sure millions of Americans are on watch lists.

I don’t think the FBI has too much interest in me. I mean, they have a budget, too. There’s only so much money to go around in the FBI, and studying me would be expensive.

You’re tying random incidents together into some kind of crazy narrative involving the FBI. That’s a fault of logic. They’re just a bunch of chance occurrences.

I’ve been there where it feels like every little out of place thing feels like part of a grand conspiracy against me. It’s just psychosis and paranoia. But it feels so real, because you’re not well.

This.

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