I believe sarcosine isn’t really working in your body and brain, but the placebo effect taking over making you feel better cause you took something. Now is the placebo effect bad? No, but do I want it deciding how I feel?
I do have an addictive behavior, but I want the medicine in my body reacting with my CNS (or wherever Invega hits on in your body) sending signals to my brain saying it’s working. So I pretty much want the medicine working and only feel it when the medicine is working.
What I’m saying is I think I ruined my brain and body with drugs so much the Placebo Effect doesn’t work on me, And if it does it only works for minutes then fades away, but the medicine doesn’t fade you can feel it working knowing your not hearing voices, or getting paranoid or getting triggered easily causing breakdowns. That’s the medicine in your body causing you to stay sane.
If you are like me and it was the placebo affect then it would of sent you into a breakdown shortly after because there was no medicine in my body helping me, just placebo affect making me think it was working.
And to tell you the truth you can call me crazy or whatever, but Im in my right head and I still believe my HealthCare System (where I go to get my shot) conspired to see if I really had scizoaffective.
Why you ask? Because that’s just when I went on the 3 month shot. It was my first time on the 3 month shot and went in for my appt. and the nurse shot it in my hip like always , but I never see what milligram it is or if she even shot it all in me, just have to believe her (which I do for the most part). Well the dose I was supposed to be on was like around 900mg something. What I didn’t know was my Doctor ordered a shot for 287mg something and my nurse administered it too me.
Now can somebody tell me this? Would my nurse know that that was a low dose for me since 287 mg is my original shot every month and last only a month? I think she did know that and still gave it to me anyway thinking “oh he’ll be alright” "or “oh we’ll really see if he has bad scizoaffective or not.” She knew the doctor ordered a low dose for me for that 3 month’s but didn’t say anything and just tried to give it to me thinking “he don’t have scizoaffective that bad.”
Now around or alitttle before the 2 month Mark I was reading something on fb and got triggered real easy and those thoughts snowballed into a breakdown, and that was Saturday, so I had to wait till Monday still going through my breakdown and all to tell my nurse something happened. Now when I did she was so apologetic and got it fixed right away for me that day, and said she was so sorry, So that’s what makes me think she knew.
She was so apologetic and saying sorry to me and said if I needed anything to call her or ever felt bad. Yeah after I had my breakdown she kind of warmed up to me, but before that she never really wanted me to check back up with her or anything.
Yeah it was a conspiracy I know it, but IDC my dose is right now and get it every month and it keeps me going good, but wait till next time I see that doctor. Im going to make her feel like ■■■■, which she won’t care she don’t care about her patients anyway, but we will have words and she will know I was not happy about the 3 month shot attempt