I think that the phenomenological description (consciousness studies) is the best description of schizophrenia:
“Patients with schizophrenia suffer from a decline of “me,” the background core of their experiences. Normally tacit experiences intrude into the forefront of their attention, and the sense that inner-world experiences are private diminishes. These patients lose the sense that they are the origin of their thoughts and actions; their self-evident network of meanings and a solid foundation of life disintegrate. Subsequently, their experiential world is transformed, alienated, intruded, and fragmented”
İ always have paranoia and delusion since my childhood but it was mild.it get stronger by age and finally relapse at age of 27.i always wonder how existence would be free of paranoias.i thing its like heaven somehow
Yes. My problems came later, but ipseity disturbance has been worse. Once i couldn’t feel or understand my own limps, i felt detached from them… Now i “only” have disturbance of thought and some ego loss.
Well i don’t have paranoia, but i don’t think i live in heaven - but i understand, it must be very annoying never to have a moment of peace (if i understand paranoia right)
That definition is accurate in some cases, but in my case I never really had the delusion that someone was reading my thoughts, or that I was being controlled outwardly. However, “normally tacit experiences intrude to the forefront of their attention” rings true, for example over a decade ago I had a delusion that I was the centre of a revolution and I was telepathically communicating with others in a subtle way, like not direct telepathy, but the part that rings true is that I would see subtle body language of others as clear signals that they got my messages.
So some parts of the definition are good but might be too general.
I haven’t had the delusion that other reads my mind or outside control either.
But i’m aware of my own thinking, often painfully, and thinking is one of those things that should be discreet or tacit, in the background and most often it is, but sometimes the boundary break and im all of a sudden aware of my own thinking and how i think.
I had a breakdown when i was young, where i was aware of my own movements and limps, it was very annoying.
Ive met a few people who have sz and each one is different some just have extremely unstable behavior / emotions without much cognitive alterations. One guy I met in the hospital had sz diagnosis because of fighting with parents. Any definition wont include or will exclude someone.
- but i understand, it must be very annoying never to have a moment of peace (if i understand paranoia right)