Ever since I became aware of my illness and started fighting it off more and more, my psychotic episodes becoming less frequent, I end up getting bored because life is so…dull…without the psychosis to sort of spice things up. The psychosis added narrative and purpose in form of delusions…added a lot of bad stuff too but there was never a dull moment…I am learning to come to terms with boredom and life dissatisfaction…but currently it still leads me into depression.