Can you work or go to school? 30% seems low to me.
Not to school, but I can work remotely. I still hallucinate out the wazoo, everything seems pretty computery to me at the moment.
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I googled years ago the Matrix delusion and insanity defense and they go hand in hand. Iām really sick but Iām getting better and made strides about a billion percent. I used to be practically worse than blind and severely dissociated. Life has been extremely tough for me and I donāt know why. I am confident but itās never been confirmed that I was a Montauk Boy. From what Iāve researched 1% of them survive. Of those 1%, 1% remember what happened to them and a further 1% of those people can function and live on their own. So I guess Iām a rarity but I canāt make money or do much with my life. I hope I can stay on social security for a while.
I am getting better but itās going to take a few years and some motivation and motivating factors to get over these humps.
I hope I can be one of those 1 in 1 million Montauk Boys that can make it and have money and an education and perhaps a family some day and not be stressed out and paranoid all the time.
Iād say 60-80% depending on the day. I still work though.
I intend to continue for as long as the workplace puts up with me (they already make comments about me being disinterested or lazy).
Relatable. I feel if I was to have a slightly better care or support network. I wouldnāt be in a position of feeling like leaving my work. Itās so important because it alleviates the stress or pain of working. And Iām only part time. So Iām not as strong as you are but Iām about half way there ā coffee and cigarettes do help. Shame I want to quit the latter; itās so expensive! 
I go back and forth between seeing myself as too disabled for a chance at a ānormal lifeā and ultimately capable but afraid to try at anything. I think the fact that Iāve had to leave three jobs so far due to becoming too mentally overwhelmed to continue with the work means I am, in fact, pretty disabled, but thereās definitely a possibility that there are still avenues of conventional success for me because Iāve only worked jobs deemed exceedingly stressful by even non-MI peeps so far.
I donāt know. I work 20 hours a week but canāt even do that sometimes
Again, I have had paralysis and itās not the end of the world. Iām still worthy to live.
Plus, I have a degenerative disease that will paralyze me for life.
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How is it to have no hands and no legs? How do you eat? How do you go to the bathroom? It seems too hard.
A lot of people with physical disabilities are in a situation that you call ācomplete paralysisā. Actually, itās manageable.
- Eating- there is an automatic spoon that feeds you. Some people use this or have a caregiver do it.
- Bathroom- if you have partial paralysis, you simply ātransferā into the toilet and slide yourself on it, or use one of those urinal flannels to pee (if you are a woman). Or they have a catheter. Sometimes a caregiver lifts you up on the toilet to do your business.
It isnāt too hard if you see how they manage to do it. Itās difficult, but itās manageable.
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Thanks for letting me know, never knew about automatic spoons, technology is amazing!
I saw on TV someone with complete paralysis who became a computer programmer. He moved the mouse with a touchpad attached to his lips!
life is harsh even if your not disabled
you cant achieve much
we all r disabled
you know 1%of people have the majority of wealth so all people in a form or another are disabled 
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Youāre reminding me of my university. I have a degree in physiotherapy and I have the option to specialize in rehabilitation working with the disabled and the elderly.
I used to get this. Therefore was seen as being at least 80% disabled.
Yeah the joystick can be attached on the headrest too for people with complete paralysis.
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