People dont understand schizophrenia. I told my dad i was feeling really depressed today and usually that means im going to get paranoid. He just told me to take a cold walk and “that’ll fix me.” I try to open up to my parents about how i feel and they always just shoot it down. They dont realize with schizophrenia there is no easy answer. Paranoia comes when it wants.
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I just get annoyed. I try to open up and he shuts me down. My mom is the same way. They are both terrible listeners
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Maybe there not shooting you down and just offering the only advice they can think to give you
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Venting doesnt mean that you want advice for me i just want a little sympathy because if im talking about it its really bothering me and a little empathy can go a long way
I don’t meltdown as often or as badly these days, but I can tell when I’m getting close to one. I’ve got coping strategies that I plan out ahead that I can use to try and ramp back down before I flip my lid (mine are either triggered by excess sensory input or social stress). Is this something you can try and plan out for paranoia episodes?
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When i have mood swings its hard to avoid paranoia. But i found if i watch tiktok before i feel super paranoid i can usually get rid of it. But generally speaking. Every time i have one of these really bad bouts of depression ive gotten paranoid.
I guess im just looking for a little empathy. Not just some “toughen up kid”
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You get plenty - it’s a bugger of a situation. I don’t think neurotypicals realize just how frustrating and frightening it is to have your own mind go off the rails on you while you’re dragged along as a spectator.
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Yeah. I know my parent care and take care of me. But i always hide how im feeling. They dont see the dark sadness that i constantly battle.
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Im sorry that youve got that
You have to just muscle through this. People JUST DONT GET IT.
Don’t expect you as a non professional sufferer of Schizophrenia and not a professional advocate for mental illness to win this battle in your personal life.
Your parents are flawed, selfish and have compartmentalized your life’s tragedies effect on their emotional being. They have already mourned your “death” who you were, what your potential was. And if it wasn’t instant, it has happened over the course of your recovery.
They’re in survival mode for themselves, just as you are surviving yourself. They are re-evaluating a lot of things and many of them have never experienced therapy or any sort of concerted effort in applying any sort of functional emotional constructive work on themselves and families.
You’re disappointed because you put your parent on a pedestal and they turned out to be human.
You have to mourn that idealized form of them, and then fight and crawl, and scurry, and survive this relationship and morph yourself into the best form of yourself now that you know your mental state and your illness and your mind’s limitations.
Its not pretty, its not kind, its a cruel reality of our situations.
I want you to know that you can and will survive, if you give yourself time to heal, whether that’s buying time via escapism and brain draining yourself so you get through a day and all you’ve done is be on the internet, or be on youtube.
Is it productive? NO. Escapism is a last resort and only truly appealing to the despondent that cannot actively analyze their lives consciously. You will still survive, and you will slowly decouple from the hurt the suffering…potentially.
If you get help, if you get treated for depression, if you get therapy and you work on things that agonize you.
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Well said. You make some very good points. My parents are terrible at talking about feelings. I dont even know why i try to talk to them about how i feel. I guess im just looking fkr an “everything will be ok.”
I am doing therapy. Actually have 2 therapists. Its kind of ridiculous really. Ones fkr alcohol and one is for depression. They are both the same thing though since i havent drank in 6 months.
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When a person is venting moral judgement should be withheld in many cases, but if the person is too distraught or destructive they should be warned about the possible consequences.
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