Because I have a posts about schizophrenia way back on my facebook, like badass posts about along the lines of “you may have wondered where I was for a year, well I was psychotic, now I am on medication and on a full ride in the honors psychology program and a competitive weightlifter” which got like 100 likes on facebook.
I also have links to articles I have been featured in.
I also posted a picture of my barbell callouses with something about schizophrenia in like May, and he and I were having one of our usual two hour long talks and he mentioned seeing some picture of my hands all bloody. If he saw that, he saw the articles I was featured in.
but he hasnt brought it up. Now I think I can see why- in the articles, I was a success story- extremely high functioning, on the deans list, which is publicly available, anyone can go on my university’s website and see who made the deans list, I have been on it every semester. I do rant on this site, but I am truly as recovered as possible- I experience hardly any symptoms and mainly worry about relapsing and am working on getting over the fact that the whole ■■■■ storm ever went through my life. That and I do suffer from anxiety every day. I just deal with it and perform to my ability and take pride in that. I also am in great shape, which is rare for schizophrenics. I have had professors say that they would have never in a million years guessed that I had it.
My doctors say that I am in the stage of recovery of putting the past behind me and they can tell that I am med compliant, hell I am majoring in neuroscience I even know how my meds work, LOL.
But yeah, I think he probably dug through my facebook. He told me he had looked through my pictures, like all of them, back to when I was like 16 and if he did that, he probably looked through my posts and discovered that I am a recovered schizophrenic.
But he might assume that I don’t want to talk about it and that it is behind me, which it is, but I don’t mind talking about it.
He says he has anxiety and trouble with sleep during the weekdays. He also has a mentally challenged brother, and his mom has a degree in psychology. I think he might know but not hold stigma against me.
But after all, I have my ■■■■ together better than most normal people my age and am also good looking, so I think people let it slide. The only people I share my schizophrenic stuff with have psychotic disorders themselves or doctors. Like last night I talked with my paranoid schizophrenic buddy who goes to my school, we hung out for a few hours and we always have stories to share. He is very similar to me. He even takes the same antipsychotic. He’s also bisexual, has a girlfriend and secretly gets it on with guys.
But regardless, this guy has made plans to spend the whole weekend over, so I wont be getting on here for a few days. Everyone take your meds while Im gone. lol
If he does bring it up I will just be honest about it.