Today I had a weird experience of paranoia. I was in mosque in the ladies section upstairs and there was this elderly lady who out of the blue gave me a lecture CD. Then my mind recalled a time when I read on a forwarded whatsapp message about CD’s placed on Muslim people’s doorsteps that were poisoned. So here I was my mind working overtime. Thinking suspicious thoughts that maybe this lady is working with crooks handing out poisoned CD’s.
Then to top it all i started thinking has she got a bomb under her jacket? Oh God I was so crazy. I couldn’t concentrate on my prayers. I sneaked the CD back on to her pile of cds. What the hell is wrong with me? Is this sz?
I didn’t want to tell my husband but I did. He wasnt so happy about it, said my inclination to fear may lead to divorce. Then I said I have paranoid sz and paranoid fears are part of it then he understood to my relief.
Question is - is being scared and suspicious of things and others part of sz?