I feel like I can’t even think without being afraid others are going to know my thoughts, steal them, get mad at me, or something ■■■■■■■ negative. I hear people in my mind getting mad at me, sure I think some ■■■■■■ up ■■■■ somewhat frequently, but I try to stop. I know that they probably don’t know what I’m thinking, but it annoys me because these thoughts literally make my brain twitch, like they are real feelings. I don’t know, I am getting better at talking to people without being as paranoid, but it’s still ■■■■■■■ annoying that if I become aware of my thoughts I feel like others can too. I hear my brother saying dumb ■■■■ a lot and it pisses me off.
Are you on any meds?
Now I am, had to change meds again
I had the same symptoms. I’m on a pretty low dose of olanzapine (zyprexa) and helps for the most part, I have mild episodes that are pretty random and take a benzo for those, but it barely helps usually just have to ride it out.
How do you do socially? Cause the biggest thing stopping me from doing stuff is the paranoia/anxiety. Do the benzos help a lot with that?
I do alright at work. Otherwise I’m a little bit socially withdrawn, I don’t make much of an effort to see friends or interact with family. I think it has to do with the negative and cognitive symptoms of schizophrenia so drugs don’t really work for that.
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