The closest time anybody will come to hell on earth is schizophrenia. With maybe the exception being war is worse.
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Hey my man, try to look on the bright side of life!
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I agree. Add chronic headaches to mix and it’s like being in one of the circles of hell, with the constant torture without relief.
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You’re a good man Chess! Both bright and wise!
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Also schizophrenia make everything worse.
Ie schizophrenia + cancer
Schizophrenia in a war, etc
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Schizophrenia + aspergers = never had a chance.
I wrote this poem about how I feel about sza
I’d rather have
Cancer
Than this.
She spoke the words
As if
She looked into
My blackened soul
That
Spewed
That identical thought
Thousands of times
In my mind.
It’s like wearing
Rose coloured glasses
Except no pink
More like jaded green.
She sits on the stairs
A cigarette
Hanging from her lips
The despair
The tired eyes
Pain so apparent
On her face.
How do I tell her
I understand
When everyone
Pretends they do.
They don’t because
No one wants cancer.
Except us who know
That this
All consuming
Wretched
Exhaustion
Will let us live
Another 40 years
Of mental anguish
Torture
Bordering on hell.
No not bordering
It is pure hell
No chance of cure
No chance of normalcy
Just one black day
Followed by one more
Pushing through
Praying to find relief
Finding instead
An overwhelming
Emptiness.
I turn to walk away
But just as I do
I say
I do too.
Hanging my head
I walk inside
There.
I said it.
The truth of ugliness
Finally released
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SZ is hell on earth. I believe there are hells on earth. Nothing, nothing is worse than being trapped in a tormented mind. Ive thought about this a lot in my life. There is hope. Things can get better, not to be pessimistic but they can also get worse again. Thats in the Lord’s hands for me. I think that poem was great @FatMama
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Like I’m not a downer but I’ve an Uncle with Parkinsons. Now that shite is whack and I it’s not like I’m glad but I’d take schizophrenia any day of the week over that!
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I got sick at 21. I’d take getting dementia or Parkinson’s any day if I got it at a very old age.
The first 6 years when I had bad paranoia and didn’t think I was sick was definitely hell on earth. When I am suicidal I still feel that way but quasai recovered on the right meds it just plain sucks.
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Yes, we all know schizophrenia is hell. But hey, there’s a lot of things worse than schizophrenia in the world. I’ve had schizophrenia going on 39 years but I’ve always had a roof over my head and always had enough to eat. I’ve lived in nice places before and I’m living in a nice apartment now.
I doubt any kid in N. Korea, Haiti or Cuba is going to see Aerosmith in concert like I did. Or Bruce Springsteen, Bob Dylan etc. Half the population in China will never drive a car as nice as mine. And it’s not just about money. The average adult in other places in the world will not meet and hang around the cool people I’ve hung around or met.
It’s about perspective. There’s millions of kids in the world who won’t live to see 12 years old. Whether because of disease, starvation, abuse, war or natural disasters because their country is too poor to help them when as flood or earthquake occurs. I could go on.
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Very, very true. Thank you for this.
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I saw one of those ads asking for help for poor people in other nations the other day. This little five year old girl was traumitized by a bomb going off in front of her. Even though im guessing days had gone by she was being held by a care worker. Ive never seen a schizophrenic freaking out and in as much anguish as she was. Horrible. 
I guess its like dantes inferno, different degrees of hell
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Personally sza is not the worst to happen to me. And cuz I have a good support system in place I feel I’ve been saved from much of the anguish sz can inflict.
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It’s been a long road.
The road continues.
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